So I am really bad at physics and I need extra help. I have found a tutor but he is asking for greens 💵. My dad is an alcoholic and he thinks he can make people stay by paying them and buying them gifts and loaning them. Which leads to fights out of frustration with us and you know what the worst part is - he thinks our happiness is way less important than the outside world’s. Even so much so that he fights with us when people ask for loans and he loans them a huge amount. And everyone uses him and I have to help him through his turmoil only to hear hurting words. I Don’t ask for much. All is ask for is food shelter and love. And I am so scared to even ask him to hire that tutor because he might start drinking again and I would have to be tortured again.