So from the past 1 month i feel mentally drained. Relationship problems, social anxiety, distancing myself from people, overthinking, feeling lost, empty and numb from within and it triggered me to take a break from everywhere and i thought it would be eventually fine. But rapid mood swings and sudden emotional outbursts every day just lead me to weakening myself. All i wanted was a bit of comfort but my depression was named as senseless, all i needed was comfort but i just got advices on how to do things well even i know but im not able to do that but some people dont understand. While some people really led out a helpful hand some were just so full of themselves they neglected all of it and hoped for me to be fine and normal and if I weren’t i’m just weird. When you feel low and you get moral support from nowhere. You feel as if you’ve hit rock bottom. Henceforth i distanced myself and just started talking to myself which did help but made me feel lonely at the end. I seek love, comfort, support and presently, im getting none. I always have to pretend things are fine when they are not I always have to distract myself in order not to get deeply absorbed in my own thoughts. Everyone’s coping mechanism is built different right? Just now my family tested positive for covid and i can’t help but get tensed. I have to stay quarantined and all by myself where it just gets helpless. I want help but now I cant even get some. I’m sorry if all this sounds as over exaggeration but i really wanted to let all, like every single feeling out. Whosoever’s reading or listening to me I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
Mina @nepenthe
Hi💕
I wanted to tell you, this is not exaggeration at all, you are just feeling stuck, and it is totaly ok, and from time to time, it is ok for an individual to feel helpless.
Getting stuck in your own head is diffucult indeed, and I can understand that you are probably overthinking every single event in your life.
In my opinion, getting out your frasturation is an important step to feel better. So think about all the activites that would calm you down. Is it drawing? Jogging? Dacing? Singing off-key at the top of your lungs?
Just sit back and breathe. We live once, and we need to live our life in a way that will make us smile when we are older.
Getting out of your head is not something that is going to happen over night. But I am saying this from eperience, when life tries tp hit you, you got to hit back, as hard as you can.
🙂
this honestly means a lot, and thank you for spending your time reading this. The last line really got me and i’ll try looking at things from the brighter side. Your words didn’t only comfort me but lead me to a different perspective of seeing this. I feel happy knowing that there are people out there who will help you no matter what and will be there. Again, thank you :)
Mina @nepenthe
I am happy to help you, and if you ever need anyone to talk to, I am here💕
