Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Since My Break-up I’ve been depressed. It’s been 2 months already and I still miss her evn though we r friends but we agreed to have some space for few months. I’m hallucinating bout her everyday at night , sometimes I go black-out(unconscious) and in that moment I see her either killing me or choking me or just standing and promising me that she will comeback, these r things that I’m hallucinating , countless cries and sometime i laugh and cry at the same time , i started smokin though it doesn’t help, drinking and I’m busy in my studies but no rest seriously I can’t rest and it’s getting worse , music helps at night but I’m really losing my mind…