Sau baar kaha Dil-se
Chal bhool ja usko
Har baar dil ne kaha 
Tum Dil se nhi kehte ....



Coming Out

so my dad has epilepsy and gets strokes ,i also thinks he is mentally not fit owing to his profession and my grandparents,my grandparents stay stay with us and dont let us do anything in our way,the house is a mess and they dont even let us renovate..my mom feels tortured mentally all day by my grandmother and lately she is feeling financially insecure and regrets not continuing to work or moving out of granparemnts earlier..sometimes i really do feel my dad not treating and behaving well with my mom after all she sees in the day..he acts like he just doesnt care..i thought my mom shares with me everything..i got her some good books..taughts her insta and all..she watched altbalaji and did bingewatching..i also encouraged n supported her to start some work..but since lockdown she is home..dad is also bingewatching but both are doing on seperate devices..but some months back me and my lil bro saw mom texting to someone anonymous and that shook me..she behaves normal with dad n us..but hides all chats or deletes..sometimes even send photos and calls ..so now i everytime see her alone in room with her phone my mind thinks she is talking to that other guy and wen mom and dad fight.. i just hate that...i agree she needs someone to talk to but why is she hiding and talking,,, and talking like its an affair...i feel i wish i hadnt  taught her insta so much,,she posts more than me,,,and spends much more time on it...my dad may not be so expressive but he does love us..ik my mom does too..but everytime she says nad cares for dad..question pops in my mind then why are you doing that to him...i cant tell my dad coz he will be broken and i fear him getting a stroke or sometihing worse😖😖😖😫😫😫

Family

Hey peeps iam feeling very anxious about my future I feeel like I wouldn't survive the stress iam under going I feel really unhappy

Depression

Anybody up for a talk?



3am Thoughts

Need motivation to study..boards are this year but I'm just reading novels all day..fuck I gonna mess up this year...don't know how to bring My self nd life back on track...

Is it wrong for me to move on so easily...?
I was going through some stuff and I wanted a way out....I wanted to talk to someone who I would never meet cause sharing feeling with some who I would meet everyday was really scary....so I decided to text this guy on IG.....we were actually classmates in our second grade.......when I introduced myself to him in ig...he didn't remember me at all and I actually felt relieved.....we became good friends....he considered me as his best friend......but I wasn't really able to open up to him too but I liked talking to him cause it was like a escape from my life......we talked almost everyday for around 2 years.....and somewhere he caught feeling for me....I knew about it but as I didn't have any feeling of that kind towards him I just acted like I didn't know how he felt....... during this 2 years we never ever met once.....and then we got into a fight I didn't talk for a month or so.....I knew he wanted me to text him first but I didn't cause I was really hurt.....but then I realized that I kind off missed him.....note that I have never every in my life missed anyone ever so i thought I liked him too....and one day I finally texted him to confess my feelings but he did it first I was really happy and i confessed too.....I didn't want to directly go into a relationship cause it wasn't long since I realized that I liked him and wasn't actually able to imagine him that way so I suggest that we talk it slow and instead of jumping straight into a relationship how about know each openly first.....like how about we date first.....he said okay but then I had this feeling of guilt always...he was able to express his emotions so openly and they were just so heavy for me as I was not used to dealing with such feelings....and one day when he said that he loved me I didn't feel the butterflies in stomach but instead felt a pit of guilt fill in and I really felt like shit....I tried to reply with at least an hart emoji but it felt so wrong and then I knew I didn't like him anymore.....I felt so bad that even when I am receiving so much love I can't love him back and constantly felt like I was using him for passing my time.....I felt like shit...how could I do something like this to someone....I finally broke up with him just after a month of us dating.....I could tell he was totally broken and I knew I was the reason for that.....just because of my momentary feeling I broke someone so bad....I thought I could still be friends with him but that too felt so wrong....after what I did I felt like it was best for him to have me out of him life....and also cause....I felt a kind of relief fill in me....and I felt so guilty for that....I couldn't possibly be able to be friends after everything....i blocked him everywhere......and the worst part is I got over him so easily.....the guilt of breaking a innocent heart was there but I didn't regret what I did....I don't regret what I did...... only thing is how am I so heartless that I was able to forget our 2 years of friendship so easily....how can I be so cold.... 

Friends

Anyone up for late night talks?

Why im feeling so lonely and sad iam want to loved by someone and care me but its not happening im feeling so sad and depressed, when my sisters talks to others and not with me, im not used to be like this before why im feeling everyone should loves me and attention of them. Im overthinking about every situations i don't know what is happening with me i never used to be like this.

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