Sad
I miss my friend, who was never really a friend anyway. Now he has a girlfriend, i have become nothing. I need to stop thinking about him

i totally understand your situation cuz I've been in the same situation once.
You try to give him sometime. If he actually loves you he would realise his mistake and come back. If not try to move on buddy. You've got lots of other people in this world. If you wanna talk to someone you could talk to me.
Take care❤️

Depression

Have you ever been in a situation where you just feel helpless? I’ve been having issues with my boyfriend turned fiancé of 10 years (multiple breakups), and don’t know how to handle them. He is expressing that he regrets wasting so much time being a part of this relationship in past and want to start a fresh now. He is unable to let go of past and is starting to have feeling of regret that he continued to be a part of this relationship because he can’t overcome the past (multiple breakups) we had. I’ve tried to make him understand that unless he let’s go of past, the issues will never end. 

Relationships

I dont know what is goin in with me. I have talked to a guy , it was arrange set up for marriage. Then i said no as i was just anxious that i am not good enough or that i might spoil something. 
He went back to canada. I have not forgotten him. He is still in my mind since last 6 months. I hate myself . I am obedient girl always but this time i didnt listenened to my family who also like him. He must be thinking i an arrogant and stupid but truth is he is always on my mind. I have not slept ever since with peace. I am absent minded and i have lost confidenc. I always self loathe and talk negativly with myself about my self. Everybody said to call him once i wanted to but i dint have confidence and guts and now living in this indecision 6 mnths have passed and i have not moved on.. I hate myself for being selfish or whatever i am .. I dont have right to cry or repent and yet here i am.. i don think i will ever get over guilt and repentance. What shoild i do? I am no more interested in any other matches.. When he was calling me i was anxious and now all his talks seems so true to me.. I am in this quicksand and sinking deep each day.. As my mind is playing tricks on me.. But hasnt my mind gotten tired after all this time. I really hate myself..

Confusion

So back in 2019 I have a crush who actually used to give a shit abt me & my existence... I didn't propose him or said anything like that... But after few months he proposed me 🙂 and I blocked him next day bcuz I had a boyfriend that time. Lmao he used to call me with his friends and changed numbers... I have 6-7 numbers of him... 

Now it's been 3 years with 'other guy'(bf) who used to have a crush on me. He proposed me indirectly after 3 days of meeting me. Then I said yes to him after few days. Lmao it was just an attraction with his voice... It took me 3-4 months to actually fall in love with him... 

Tldr- now I am chasing my bf like my crush chased me LoL... My bf screamed a lot when he came to know abt this on mee, not him 🙂 He screams on me everytime he get to know someone proposes 🥲😇  MF life

3am Thoughts

I’m in love with someone, and I love him with all my heart. I honestly cannot believe I found someone like him. Nobody has ever made me feel this way and honestly don’t know if anybody can love me the way he does. I say the wackiest shit and go crazy and just don’t have to pretend when I’m with him. 
The craziest part is I found him on tinder when I was looking for nothing but a casual fling. When I left for the Uk in 2019, we decided the fling is done, and we’d both move on.
But it just couldn’t stay that way, we ended up video calling every single day.
Ultimately we realised we were in love but we never discussed it or did anything about it cause we knew it can never be. Why? Cause he’s Muslim and I’m Hindu. 
It just pains me that this man I can definitely see my future with is definitely not going to be in my life in a few years. 
I hate how life is so unfair. 

Love

I never could go like even 2 days without sh. Someone who was really close who knew everything about me including sh he asked me to talk to him whenever I felt like you know doing sh. I never used to talk and just go ahead and cut myself and when I cut I don't tell him about any of it and when he gets to know that I did it he used to be very disappointed in me but I didn't care.  And once I just was soo tired idk what happen that I went and told him about it I told him about the urge I was feeling at that moment. He tried his best to stop me but I am pretty stubborn so I wasn't listening to him then he told me that I could do whatever I wanted but he would never be proud of me if I did it and he went. I couldn't believe what I just had heard I was angry at him like idk why but I was angry at myself too cause I felt like shit cause I loved tht person soo much tht he was like a thread to my life holding me from attempting something bad. And I couldn't even make him proud?? then why would I even live?? I thought about it the whole night. I didn't do sh that night. I wasn't like proud of myself that I didn't do sh. But in the morning I told him that I didn't do it he didn't believe me at first I mean couldn't believe myself. When he believed he was soo proud of me that I was happy with myself. Now that person isn't in my life rn but he still loves me and I love him too but even if I didn't love him now I would never do anything to disappoint him and that's what is holding me from doing sh and it is been 27 days .

Self Harm

My boyfriend’s gone back home for the holidays while I’m still here at uni- it feels as though I’m the only one putting in efforts to maintain what we have :(
I get that a relationship doesn’t have to be 50-50 all the time and sometimes one person has to put some more effort in; but it feels like I’m the only one putting in effort these days?

I’ve been having dreams of him getting back with his ex which makes my intrusive thoughts worse.

I’m thinking of not texting him or calling him until he does so first? But at the same time I’m so scared of being toxic to him..

Should I bring this up to him? That I feel like he should be putting in more effort?? Or should I tell him that I’ve been having dreams about him and his ex??

He does check up on me on text though but I’m always the one calling him and it makes me feel like I’m annoying him even though he tells me I’m not.

Does anyone have any advice??


Anxiety

Should I call him? 😖

I went to a restaurant with my boyfriend and he was acting very nervous and in front of me he said that :when that whore will come to bring us food?and in another day he also commented very ugly words about another waitress and even did not like the bread and took the bread in his hand ,squeezed it and threw it a bit further on the table and said that the bread is too soft and when the waitress comed he said to her that he doesnt like the eggs that they are not hot but cold and the eggs has to be in a glass and showed to the waitress a picture and she responded to him that they just simple boil the eggs and in that restaurant they dont put the eggs in a glass and she doesnt know where he seen that but during their conversation he was aggresive with her and she asked him to calm down and told him that if he wants she may boil the eggs again and give him hot eggs and explained that they are a bit colder because they were in cold water in order to make for him easier to clean an eggshell.Now,when in another day again while we were in a restaurant he kept saying to me that the waitress is a bitch and was acting nervous I asked him to stop acting like that and calling her names and he did that again and I took a glass of clean water and throw it on his tshirt(not face but tshirt)and asked him to calm down and stop calling that girl ugly names (I did that because he was acting with no respect towards her and this pissed me off-even if she didnt hear his comments I am still a woman and for me in unpleasant when a man is doing that) and when I did that to him with clean water he called me a fucking bitch and said wtf you did ,how could you dare do throw the water at me …and I said you better eat alone and he said fuck you and I went outside from that restaurant and left him there(I really could not eat with him because his behavior and comments about waitress made me nervous) …do you think I did right or my behavior was very ugly?I would really appreciate some honest opinion,thank you….do you think I should go back to him cause he said that he is sorry but I feel something is wrong here…what is your opinion?

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