Recently, i removed some people from my life my closest friends which i dont really like how they treat me. They look down at me, during  birthdays  or occasions i feel like an outcast to them sometimes they would exclude me. So during my birthday i never got gifts or even a surprise which they do to my other friends except me. And i ended my relationship with them and theres this old friend i have who message me how i am and helps me, and motivate me she told me i will find new friends that would truly appreciate me and that day comes i found new friends who truly cares for me, reach out for me and i really really appreciate the little things they did.

that's so good man! 
all the good wishes your way!
have more happiness

Friends

I hate myself for this, but I really envy how some people can connect with people so easy. I have this friend who talked to a new girl in class and as I expected, they connected smoothly and I felt envy for that.
Gaining trust of others was so easy for me, now seems like an impossible task. I guess it has to be bc I'm always like having a fight with myself for everything and that affects how I express myself or something but yeah it sucks not having friends to connect like that with

Relationships

I've been feeling kinda suck lately, I've been overthink about myself in a friend group. So I had a friend group that has 20 member on it and we've been playing games, chatting and more but days by day I feel like I'm making the uncomfortable, and annoyed them. Since they act weird recently. Ugh idk why but that's making me losing motivation to do things that I usually do. They were my only group friend that I had and I don't want to make myself get kicked out 😭also i have crush on 1 of the member, our relationship are good kinda close not rlly. And there a bich that acting sad and depressed and only be nice to my crush like excuse me 😃😃and 6 of the member think that she deserves better bla bla bla but I feel like, my place were moved yknow like THAT SUPPOSED TO BE ME. ugh life so unfair i hate my life

Jealous

**I HAVE NO FRIENDS, IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY PERSONALITY THAT PEOPLE DON'T STICK WITH ME.  AT THIS POINT I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO MAKE FRIENDS😫😣. NOBODY WISHES ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY WHATSAPP IS DESERTED, I HAVE ONLY 2 FRIENDS THAT ONLY MESSAGE ME WHEN THEY NEED SOMETHING FROM ME. I AM STUCK AT HOME WITH NO ONE TO TALK TO ME AND THIS IS EATING ME FROM INSIDE**

does anyone have a social life, cause i dont. I know many people how have guy friends but i dont go plus i am not invited to partys, plus some of my friends had a sleepover and did not invite me, i know their hella toxic and they use me but they do have a social life and i sont know if i should be with them or be alone. fuckkkkk 

Lonely

So I have theses 3 friends were like a group ig and I’m always left out they tell me I don’t do anything but mess around I don’t really I just want them to laugh at my jokes smile but no instead they point out my insecurities and when where in a group project they leave me out and say I don’t do anything how I’m a supposed to know if you don’t tell me what to do and leave me it’s honestly messed up I don’t know what to do anymore I want them to accept how I am and be part of there group I feel tired of waiting for them.

Check on your strongest friends they are usually the ones bleeding in silence! 

3am Thoughts

Well for first I’ve always thought scl friends are everything , after I went into Pre-university even over there I had scl friends which never made me less of scl friends , so I used to hang with them , but slowly in 12th , the group totally changed , they did remove me from their gang I was fine with it , I had my fellow mates which they’re awesome we used to have so much fun in the Puc but later after 12th no guys intended to contact anyone I just felt there’s some ego nd ignorance in the whole gang , I agree they’re little egoistic but still what are they doing even , I just did move on it was basically the holidays after 12 th due to the covid the admission of degree had been pushed late forward so I was damn alone where I had no one , I always made friends outside of my clg nd scl bcz they had the ego of whatever’ but still after I come into degree I just look back there’s no scl friend who’s there for me totally okay cool but now I got my clg friends over here sometimes I get irritated bcz of their ego sometimes, just in degree I have totally a different group of circle which I’m proud of that I don’t have any past people but still I got 3 people of my clg mates but fine with it just lookin it at how far I’ve have came 

Now&Me Thinks

Tell me that you've crazy friends without telling me that you've crazy friends. 

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