quick question. 

my friend has been distant from me, but not distant from his other friends. 

is asking him "hey, did anything happen?" too intrusive? its only been like this for a day or so.

thats logical. i havent heard anything from him today but thats obviously because of school. (he's an online friend) i'll try to do that until im certain he isn't just busy :)

Friends

It's been 2 years since we were together. Kon kehta hai relationships are forever. When you suffer from an abusive relationship still you hope that one day he"ll change. But it keeps on getting worse. The relationship ended. I never thought it would. It's difficult because i am fighting with my own self. I took the right decision. But i wasted all my feelings and love. I wasted 2 years. Can i ever get back those days and relive it in a good way? Can i ever be a normal person again with feelings and love. Won't i be able to fall in love ever again?. 

3am Thoughts

Why do you love me if you are not over your ex? You will never truly love me if you keep thinking about him. I have to wait for your decision, your decision to truly love me the way I love you. When will you let him go? He was never worth your time, why don't you see that. He treated you poorly, you loved him, he used you, but you still loved him. I know I'm not being reasonable but I'm right here, I'm here to love you in open arms. Please let me in, I understand your weight. I felt like that after my ex broke me but I will not hold myself attached to a person who was not worth my love, that person hurt me. Used my body treated me like dirt  and I decided to end that cycle...please I know heart break can last a long time but please...please don't deal with it alone. I love you please see that. I'll take care of you.

Hope

My boyfriend watched 3 seasons of lucifer in one day yet whenever I ask time from him, he says he is busy. This is going on since 3 months now. What should I do?

Relationships

Hi friends!
I would like to share what thoughts are running ryt now at @1:30am . 
During my initial days of job training I met a guy in my team. Felt so connected, I travelled 3 months with him. Later I couldn't clear training n I need to leave the job. I saw *tears* in his eyes that day when I was leaving. I have never seen a guy crying so after my father and brother for me!

Later I found some job in other state but couldn't come out of his thoughts. He is so connected to me but he kind of behaves uninterested,disconnected, egoistic n arrogant sometyms. He takes long time to respond to my text msgs. Hence 3 months ago I messaged him saying that "I am done with understanding you..I am done with everything". He didn't respond to that msg.

Recently a month ago...he again messaged me saying..he is sorry. He overreacted etc.. and I started to speak normally. He kind of talked to me intimately asking me to share pics of mine. For which I wasn't really ok. After few days when I was casually talking about his behaviour or what had hurt me about his behaviour, he abruptly left the chat. After a week gap, I messaged him " hi..how r u dng.." then he replied "I am done with talking. I  am done with feelings too". 

I don't understand his behaviour.  When I moved on, he himself msgd me stating sorry and later he himself left me by saying the same dialogues which I said him. I feel so disturbed by his behaviour. I feel he is kind of egoistic that he always wanted to ignore and wants me to crave back.but the connection we share reminds me of him. How do I get out of his thoughts!

Recently

Emotional Abuse

I confessed my feelings to a guy I liked for almost 7 years , over the text. I know he had 2 relationships but he told me that he also had feelings for me  and said he knew that i've liked  him since 4 years then  asked me go out with him I said no bcz I just wanted to confess and he also didn't seem serious them he told me to do his assignment he Was bringing that assignment part over and over. I was trying to confess properly and wanted to know more about how he felt blah blah so basically now he knows that I've liked him . but I don't think that he cares bcz after that he never responded to my texts about what I told him that day he was casual as usual over d massages but the thing that confuses me the most when I walk pass him he would watch obviously but he keep looking unless I'm outta sight but maintain his silence. he hears my voice, comes outta his home, keep moving in front me while talking over the phone u can easily tell by his ways he is trying to garb my attention , and .i don't know what is this? it's rejection or he is happy to have my attention and don't want to commit bcz in reality he doesn't feel the same  idk? may be he is just enjoying the idea that I was into him? help me understand 

Crush

There's this guy at college, I've turned down his proposal  more than 5 times and he's still trying and I'm not liking it. He's the one who came between me and the man I loved and created differences between both of us and now that we've broken up he's trying again and trying to guilt trip me like Ive been waiting for you since so long, my heartbeat falls to 40 because of the condition he's in. ( because I'm not accepting him) recently he's trying to be overly involved in my life, by asking about my family members individually that how are they doing,  I get it it's kind of him but when I don't ask about his family I don't initiate conversations with him I avoid him as much as I can turn down his calls and everything all of this is just suffocating me. Please I need advice. I'm probably just thinking too much about it 

I was young, his mom didn’t like me. She said I wasn’t good for him. I was 15 when I fell in love with him. He was an adopted kid. I am now almost 20. I met him my freshman year. I let him hurt me. We hid our relationship. I can’t forget him. Last year of senior year he chose someone else over me. It broke me. I told him that if he chose her we could still be friends. I lied. He actually chose her we were 18. Why did I have to pretend like I didn’t know him In school so his mom wouldn’t find out we were a thing. I always wanted to hold his hand through the hallways, and eat lunch together, see his pretty face. I saw him hold hands with her, I saw him wait in lunch with her. He went to prom with her. I saw him give her everything effortlessly. I became depressed. I wanted to commit suicide junior year. I started to date guys because I wanted to forget them. It didn’t work. I just hurt them. I hate myself for hurting other guys. I didn’t do it on purpose I thought I liked them, but after a while I realized that I just wanted to get over him. The worst thing isn’t how badly he hurt me, but how I hurt others who actually liked me and treated me right. I think about it, and I hate it. I can’t do anything about it. I have a boyfriend now. We have been together for 8 months. I’m a sophomore in college now. My Boyfriend is the sweetest and the best, but why do I still feel like I miss the person who hurt me the most. When I see him around I feel weird. 4 months into my relationship he msged me. I was in Seattle, he didn’t know I was in a relationship. He told me he was sorry, and that he messed up. That he realized that I was the one for him. It was to late. I waited for that msg so long. He would write songs for the girl he took to prom. I would listen to them and cry. I wished that he would write one about me. I can’t sum everything up because it’s an endless story. He is my sisters neighbor. I can’t fully let him go, I’m trying I have a boyfriend now. 


Breakup

I want to move on... It's been 2 years and I am can't forget him.. My heart no longer feel anything for anymore... I tried to talk with many ppl but it doesn't work... Along with time it is getting worst

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