Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I guess. I got nothing better to do.

Tell me, what’s wrong?

I’m sorry I sound a little, well, grumpy and rude

Nothing makes sense to me. I spent my whole life dreaming. The people I cared about, have left me damaged to a degree I didnt know was possible.

My own family, truth be told.

People are capable of damaging you only when you have certain expectations from them. I know it hurts when people don’t care about you the way we do. But you have to move on from that past. It’s better you leave their company and focus on yourself. It may sound difficult but that’s what you gotta do. The more you think, more you’ll attract that. Engage yourself in some activities that genuinely makes you happy. I’ve done this myself. I realised that some people are not worth our efforts.

What did they do?

There’s no simple answer to that, friend.

They belittled me. Tried to make me hate myself. Made me do things I didnt want to. They manipulated my every decision.

For what? Their own ego.

Plus they made fun of my illness. That was passed down on me by blood. Disregarded my talents.

Maybe they thought that’ll be best for you but they didn’t know that they were suppressing you instead. Did you try talking to them about your problems?

And pal, it’s not in the past. It’s my present. That’s the scary part.

I am financially dependent

Yes I did. I always have. For years. But they blame me for my condition. They think that the one who’s trying to manipulate them

Yeah, I understand. They shouldn’t have made fun about the illness. Can you think of staying a little away from them for a while?

I used to think so. But they never take the blame, SO I dont know. They even threatened me with physical violence, although they havent done it yet.

It is very important for you to stop this somewhere because if it’s an ongoing process then it might create a greater and deep impact on you. You need some mental peace and good people around you. If they don’t understand you, it’s not a safe space.

I wish. I dont know who to contact. Best option is a teacher of mine, but I fear things might get dirty and awkward. He’s really open minded and would help me without any hesitation, but I feel awkward to ask. That’s my problem.

But it’s for your own good. I suggest you should approach him without any hesitation. He’s a teacher, he’ll understand your problem and help you in best possible way. It can ultimately lead to some good result. Please do approach him.

And asking for help would create some drama. I love my family, I just wish they were healthy.

My mother was diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder, and my father admitted it. But I bet he’s narcissistic. That’s a good proof against them since it can force legal action against them.

But are you willing to take legal actions against them?

Not really. That’s what I fear. I wish them nothing bad. But I know they might end up in legal battles because they’ve done terrible things. That’s why I am not asking for help. I just want peace.

So what do you think is a better option?

But I know that it’s the right thing to do. What they’ve done is unfair and illegal. I just cant do it. I want to avoid noise.

Just getting financially independent, but IT’S a long shot. I cant stand the toxicity anymore. I’m losing my energy.

I’d suggest you approach your teacher maybe. I know you don’t want to create a scene but it’s really important. You can’t just sit back and face all those things that they do. Even though you love you fam, it’s a necessary step to take.

I hope I would. Hope Gods got my back. I’ve been thinking about it a lot.

I appreciate you spending your time to give some advice. I really do. One of the few times I felt understood. Thanks.

Are you going through any problems yourself though?

I’m glad it helped.
No, life’s been polite to me lately. Thanks for asking:)

Im just really tired. Of everything. Crying feels useless. Asking for help seems pointless. Everyone is so pathetic.

For the first time I feel like I need help. But I don’t know who to reach out to.

You should be glad that you reached here. I don’t know if that helps much, but I’d definitely try to help you. What’s been worrying you so much?