Ritwik @rits0912
Part 1:
Being lonely is a part of my life and earlier I used to be really not able to handle it in a good way, leading to so many mental breakdown which made me convert myself into a pretencious individual who thought everything is gonna be okay if i be like that but sadly that wasnt the case as it made me push away so many people because of them not interested to be with me and they only respected me as how good of a person i am but never got close and be all ears when i needed them the most. Although, I tried to step up but I indirectly got to sense that they werent really interested in me and i made some blunt reasons that maybe i am not a good fit because of my boring character or personality per se but later i figured out that we dont go well with eachother as i am not good at initiating a conversation and just wait for the other person to speak up. I still dont know what the reason might be but i hope i get the reason someday. I admit that i am an old school but that doesnt mean i dont love trends…i really love them…just it takes time for me to catch up with these amazing trends and by the time i do, they have already left the store, without me. Maybe I got the best out of their patience and due to that, they left!!? haha…no worries…i know, it is what it is
i never believed in mass friendship! just having 1 or 2 at the very most is all good to me because they know who you are, be close to you, stand with you at ur difficult time and what not.
will continue in part 2! haha…feels like i am writing a story on me lol
still, it feels good by writing it down in here…
