Other people have major reasons for why they do the things they do, like drugs, cutting etc. Nothing life changing or traumatic happened to me, but then why do I feel this way?
As someone who has done drugs, it has some recreational purposes. If you feel low, they make you feel numb and if you feel nothing they make you trip. I don’t advocate them but the emotionally stable people are less likely to be addictive and discover safe doses of consumption.