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Falcon74

Em still awaiting for that day to happen 🤔

Happy

I really had high ambitions towards my career but it’s all just falling apart. Nothing is going the way I wanted it to. I’ve been trying so hard, but nothing is going right. I got a project in which I have no interest in since it doesn’t match my skill set and I’ve been waiting for so long to get into a project of my interest. Have been working sooo hard for that but still coz of my luck I got transferred to some totally different project. And the worst part is I can’t even come out of it. I’ve tried everything possible. It just hurts that even after trying so hard , we still don’t achieve things we like. It’s really sad. I so wish I could change any of this. 

Career

Feelings loneliness


Depression

I was okay alone until I was living with family but I am Still the same as I was 6 months back in terms of any relationship when I moved out. I have no one to go out with at events. I did met few people at office, but I don't feel like going with them to the places I want. And I observed people how easy is for them to have friends. I like to go alone and I can go too but sometimes we can't go alone to some places and events. Is it ONLY me? I see around everyone's enjoying and being themselves but I can't. This world seems so alienated.

Society

when depression hits hard, I'm 19 and I'm absolutely depressed. I'm not sure when it started, but it got worse over time. Whatever I do, it never seems to be enough to fill the gap. I try to get away from the real world as much as possible, but it's never enough. I have the impression that my friends no longer like me, and I'm still fixated on the relationship I had with my ex, despite the fact that I know I was just exploited in the end. I feel like I should be savouring these years, but I can't, and it feels like I'm squandering my life and i knwo this is what happens when depression hits hard. I've been having difficulties concentrating in school, and I'm beginning to wonder if the career path I chose is one I'm capable of pursuing in the long run. I’ve never been diagnosed and my parents are against it. I've tried to tell my mother how I feel several times, especially when I was younger, but she just doesn't seem to care. She believes that it is something that everyone goes through at this age. As a result, I have a strained connection with my mother. She scolds me to no end at times, and she's obsessive and controlling to the point that she won't let me do anything. I just want to feel something again, and I'm tired of living in this place. The prospect of moving out is the only thing that keeps me alive, even if I'm not sure how or when to achieve it. Perhaps, this is how it feels when depression hits hard :')

Hi I need some outside opinion if anyone that reads this is Malaysian or Singaporean. I wanted to ask if I'm considered a terrible neighbour if I construct a 6-7ft tall brick wall all along between my house and my next door neighbour (at my part of the land)? I bought that house but not staying there currently. I only stayed on weekend when i went back to my parents hometown. I used to go back once/month since it's in another state (4 hours away). I wanted to have that tall wall because the left neighbour's kids always climb to my house. They even leave foot prints from when they climb back. I also find many small trash (tissues, plastic bag, cotton buds etc) on my side of the house facing them. There were also plastic bags being placed on the mesh fence few times too. The boundary mesh fence also was quite damaged as some of their family members loved to lean on it making the fence turned ugly (bent). Other than that, the family also loves to gather infront of the porch, making loud noises & they have a big german sheperd dog (that barked so loud when it sees me). I never face any kind of problems with my other next door neighbour as they're very private people (always stay in their house). That neighbour of mine are will burn incense sticks every morning & since our house's a small terrace house, the smell is pretty bad honestly especially at my kitchen area since it's well ventilated (sorry if it's offensive) but I still can tolerate it (coz Malaysia is a multi raced country). They also had asked me if they can use my front grass area to plants something there which I quickly tell them they can't. Other than that 7 ft tall brick wall, I also plan to place electric fence on top of it and around my house. So my question again was, will I be considered a bad neighbour if I do all that? I rarely get to go back there and since it's a brand new house, I am just worried about the safety & condition of my house that's all. I have absolute zero intention of causing trouble. 

Neighbours

If you are going to put my replies to the post under review and then shadow them for "inappropriate language" at least tell me which word was inappropriate!!! The only option that remains after you take the post down is to 'delete' it, nothing else, how am I supposed to know???

Now&Me Feedback

Okay I'll wear black monochrome outfit later and holy cow i am so excited 🧡🧡

Love

I always control my feelings and never cry in front of others, but those who do always gain sympathy. I am not that social and I am severely emotionally detached. Why am I like this? And also, at the moment, I am kind of triggered by everything, so it makes me remember all of the traumas. And with all the things that are going on at the moment that are stressful, my anxiety attacks are not helping.
Damn, I am drowning really hard.

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