Ok so, im broke, no money, no job, no friends, nothing, i just dont know what to do anymore. I wish I could support my family too 
Too confused with my life 

However bad life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at. Where there's life, there's hope.

Stephen Hawking



Life

I will never be like him. I want to live on my own without caring people's opinions. It suck. 

Emotional Abuse

So I started talking out to this guy on bumble, and now we talk most of the time but I don't know he feels the same or what does he even feel?? What should I do? 

Confusion

How to study for exams when u haven't even completed 30% of your proportion and u only have 3 days.. 

3am Thoughts

it's really hard to keep it all inside. i think my mind will burst. 

So my best friend just died(my cat). I had him for 8 years now December 2nd is his birthday. I hope he's doing great where ever his beautiful soul is. May he rest up the softest of roses. I will always love you. He was my only soulmate and no other pet nor human will ever replace him. His brown beautiful fur always shedding around my room, his cries to wake me up in the morning, who needs an alarm clock right? I will always miss you, you were the only one I could talk to you you sat in my arms looking up into my eyes. Nothing will ever compare how strong our bond was and how strong my love for you is and will always be. Lay-In wonderful paradise my little furball. Mommy loves and misses you. Always.

Loss

Yk I'm a loser. just a fucking loser. EOD a person wants someone who listens to them, and with whom they can rest peacefully. for the most it's their family, father or mother. my father died 2 years back and mother is miserable most of the time. I run out of energy to keep her motivated and I can't share my things with anyone, not even mother (bec obv she has had enough of her things going on) and because everyone is scared idk what about. I have done many good things in previous 2 months, there's so much of good chaos that has happened and I want to share it all to someone freely. but I have no one. what's the fucking point of all this! 
I have my goals that seem too ambitious at times and seem impossible with the present state of mind. I can't discuss these openly with anyone. I have improved a lot over time, but that's all in my head. I just keep pushing everyday merely because of the quanta of discipline left in me. There's no motivation. Oftentimes I get crazy like why tf am I doing this. For whom I'm doing this. Why can't I just sleep peacefully for once! 

Lonely

Why have you changed..this question was asked to me by each and every person in my life recently..
So before my this transformation I used to be a very kind girl..a very happy bubbly person..the one who used yo think of others before her own self..a girl who was hurt but still used to beg for that people to stay in her life...she feared losing people..whom everyone used to use for their benifits and then leave.and was taken for granted..she used to shrug it off.. saying it's fine and forgive  them..
But at a certain time..it became very much everyone took me for granted used me and hurted me everytime..
One day I was hurted by the person I loved the most..
So I decided I can't do it anymore..
I can't be happy by being kind and good person as no one values it anymore
I just took 1 week off my life problems and chaos decided something and changed into a different person..who now doesn't care about others doesn't have a heart..not kind to anyone..very selfish( in a good way) for herself and now learnt self respect and self love..
Now I don't give a f*** about anyone..now idc if anyone wants to leave.. I don't care for anyone not even my parents because once they hurt me very very badly too..
I thought this would be temporary..I would get back to my good person stage once everyone would regret doing what they did to me..
But now they do regret..
And I am satisfied..but I kinda love this form of mine.... where you get attached to no one..no one uses you.. everyone begs to be your friend or anything..and wants your past self back..I just enjoy it much more and I am very happy with it
But people wants the old me back but I don't want to anymore though I decided I would be they kind person back...
But not anymore... though people hate me now a little more but I am happy

Suggest a few ways to feel better.. 
have been feeling low since long 

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