Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

ok so im 19 year old girl and im studying as an undergraduate and my parents are forcing me to marry not letting me study any further
my dad really wanted me to be a doctor but i was not able to clear the entrance exam since then i am a disgrace to this family after that everyday i feel very low and like i am an extra baggage to them and they just want to dispose me they have many times clearly said that i am a burden on them and i don’t have to study and they will not let me study any further i am a good student and i study well but that does not matter to them and my relatives are always coming with marriage proposals from me they don’t care how disturbed i am and that my mental health is deteriorating every day i cannot move away from them as i do not have a job and i live in a village there are no jobs around here so i cannot get a job and if i refuse to meet the people for marriage proposal i am told to go out beg and eat many times i am beaten but iam unable to tell this to anyone there is no one to support me with my studies they think since i couldn’t become a doctor what other job can i possibly get everyday iam verbally abused because i want to study and have a job be independent once my dad beat me with a mop and it broke into two pieces and that day i took 1000mg of sertraline to (die but unfortunately i did not )which was given to me by my psychiatrist my parents took me to him because they thought i was mad not because i was depressed after i took sertraline over dose it didn’t cause my death and no one in my family (if i can call it mine)knows of that i never told it to anybody but everyday i am suffering from this i just wanted to tell this about myself iam so lost i just don’t know what to do