Oh to have a happy life in which people loved you and accepted you as you are

3am Thoughts

i am very confused rn. is she avoiding me? does she dont want to be friend with me anymore? shes my bsf, we used to talk everyday, but now what? shes ignoring my texts and avoiding me in school (even when we are in the same class). when i talk to her, she always have this leave-me-alone tone. she seems to be depressed when shes with me but smiles more with others. i wonder whats wrong with her, or with me?did she hear some rumours about me? or am i befriending with someone she hates? or am i just too annoying?

Friends

It's like I'm drowning I'm losing all my friends even though I have been to good to them always helping and there was a point I use to care ABT this things but ryt now I feel nothing I Guess. I'm numb .I guess this friendship word doesn't have any place in my life at this point.

I always like 2 people at the same time. I don't know what is wrong with me but I like two people at the same time and not even less or more I like them both the same :( . I don't know what to do? How to fix myself. 

Confusion

I am just dying everyday. Bit I want to die once. I live alone, away from my parents. It's killing me more, when my parents call and ask what's going on. How many times do I unhear it and just let it be. Coz nothing is going on. I am keep walking restlessly in my room. And eat Maggie or chips or just like that. Don't ask me what didi I eat. It hurts. I cry everyday. I don't wanna talk to People.  It makes me cry more. 
My home environment was hampering my depression. So I moved out. But it didn't solve the problem here I have to wear a mask of smile, when I am in pain, crying inside. I have left everything, just not the job for the money to survive. I don't want anything but freedom.

Depression

I feel like I really need someone to talk


Don't think I'll ever have someone who'll reciprocate my feelings. I'll always just be a good "friend" 

Life

I'm tired...
I'm not okay...
I am seriously want to end this....
It just my religion that keep me strong till this day...

Suicidal Ideation

Going to listen "Tera Fitoor" anyone like me? 

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