Now I'm in a relationship but I'm not happy with it because she never ask  me to meet or spend time together not talk to much yes we both are working in same city but still can't meet or can't go for a date  whenever I ask for go out she always have other plans we barely talk for 1 hour in a day I'm giving her a space but still I want to be with her we known to each other for like 5 years and now we in relationship I'm confused I don't know if she intrest in me or not I don't want to end this relationship 

Aditya Sahu 

Kaise kr leti h ye sab shadi hone wali thi fir bhi wtf 

Anxiety

I had a long talk with my girlfriend this evening. She barely talked to me, mostly did her own work and stayed silent. And kept asking me to talk to her. What I understand that she only kept me in line so that she can cut the phone in the right time and go on to talk with her new crush. She is continuously flirting with him and denies it on my face. I love her to the moon and back. And she never loved me or cared for me. I was and am her pass time choice. 

Lonely

I'm a boy and im in a situationship right now. What happened was i had a gf who was my crush for 2-3 years, I was really happy with her and everthing was going fine till covid hit. Due to covid we couldn't meet eachother and the strong connection we had started to feel like it was falling. My whole family was going abroad and never returning back , i only had 1 year with her, everytime i thought of that my heart ached . I always used to say her that i loved her so very much and didnt want to leave her side for the rest of my life. She used to see me all sad and try to cheer me up. As time went on she started to act cold with me, she used to ignore me and leave me on seen. NOTE:its still covid. After countless sleepless night , overthinking, depression, lonelyness i finally asked her to confess what and why she was doing. Turns out she was never sure if she ever loved me. She accepted me because she only liked me , she then told that we should break up and so we did. Several months later ive moved on quite a bit, i haven't completed forgetten about her but i don't think much of her. 13 days before i go abroad i meet her in the farewell, she was looking beautiful, i took photos with her as memories, later the same night she confesses to me that she always loved me but thought it was best for me if we broke up earlier as it would be easier to leave her and go abroad. Right now we are taking again , we are not in a relationship but we do couple things. My family has also decided to only send me abroad and i'll return after two years, but what do i do know? Do i stay in a long distance with her cause i am really insecure she'll leave me again, my feelings for has come back, i can't think of anything but her. What do i do? I still cant believe she did all that for me! I'm also not sure if she is saying the truth or lying!

Confusion

We had an argument about how she was busy .. when i needed her .. so i stopped talking but i found that she is talking to someone else now. 

3am Thoughts

I have never been in a relationship and every now and then i wonder if i ever will be in one. About one month ago  i tried talking to a girl who came in my tutions,i used to look at her for about 2 years and wanted to talk but couldn't muster up the courage but in my final year of graduation when i realised that after this year there was hardly any chance for me to see her again as she will be going back to her home town which a friend of hers told me so finally i walked to her and talked to her. I asked her name and she said NO to me straight away but she told me after i said if i asked in a wrong way or done anything so she told me her and when i asked her if she wanted to be friends she said no and said she was an introvert and she does not like to make friends. After 1 or 2 week i asked a friend of her if she can convince ger to talk with me for some time and after she talked to her she said that she is already in arelationship with someone so i should not pursue her anymore.
I don't know why that thing disturbed me very much. I never smoked but after that encounter i started smoking cigarette don't know why but i started doing it. Now also i see her everyday but i guess thats that....

Girlfriend broke up with me today she just told me she loved me yesterday morning before leaving the house a month ago we got into a huge fight it got physical towards the end of the fight she pulled my beard so hard even my skin my reaction was to push her she ended up hitting her head and getting a few stitches I wasn’t trying to do it intentionally or aiming to hit her head on the door I just wanted her off of me turn to yesterday her parents questioned her about the hospital bill she decided to tell them which was a little confusing since we’ve been going to therapy she likes to involve other people today she came with her mother and picked up her things I couldn’t believe it we’ve been good the last couple of weeks she told me she loved me yesterday she even showed me new apartments on Saturday to look at in the afternoon I downloaded a texting app since she blocked me from everything I was just telling her please don’t do this let’s continue therapy for her to talk to me she said she was unhappy and that to be happy she has to let me go I don’t understand how she can say that when she was telling me she loves me then she said stop texting her she was acting so cold heartless even mentioning a restraining order my heart dropped felt like a punch to the stomach I’ve never had someone say that me I’m not that type of person. I’m really down guys just trying to occupy my mind do you guys think there still hood we’ve been together almost 2years just lost right now to go from living with her to now she’s not here  

Breakup

My girlfriend of 4years broke up with me because she doesnt love me anymore, but i still love her. I feel like crap and i dont know what to do. 

Relationships

Why is it so difficult to express yourself when you feel the other person doesn't care? It shouldn't be. You feel what you feel, cannot do anything about it. But when I don't feel wanted I just cannot. Some are like doesn't matter I'd say what I have in my mind or heart but for me it is the most difficult to say it. I've pushed someone away who I liked a lot thinking they don't like me back and I told them that they made happy, talking to them makes me happy but I pushed her away when I felt she doesn't want me the way I want her. I shouldn't have. I regret every bit of it. Idk what I currently feel just I want a freaking new beginning with her. Want to meet her again and stuff. That's never gonna happen, she's dating someone and might even get married in a year or two and here I am still thinking for a year now. How's she, what she doin, ugh. 

Why I'm so stupid ??
I always give more to the persons for whom I'm concerned but in repay I always got nil .like I'm not good at this friendship kind thing but I had bestf what I call them one was girl other is guy so this girl she and I use to talk alot basically it was only me coz I shared more things I helped her alot then after that one incident happened it was related something 2019 came out in 2021 just before 3 4 days of my bday she reacted so badly which I can understand yep I was wrong but it wasn't that much that it will define our friendship like I thought we r more than that but I was wrong she texted me I confessed I said sorry I said we'll talk on call but in the mean while she blocked me From every place and even told me that I'm not saga (real) to anyone that was the worst thing coz she judged our friendship on the basis of past event not on the the events that happened recently and we stopped talking but the thing is now after 5  months she is trying to approach me today she texted me wid unknown number I blocked her From there too but I can't understand y I'm like this in my mind that I should unblock her ask her and this is not in this case only my male bestf he also suddenly stopped talking to me one day for no reason I asked him continuously 3 days let's meet he gave bullshit reasons like I'm busy and all but even after that I asked him keeping my self respect aside like I called him thrice times not only on random he sees my text but don't replies and don't do call backs too but in my heart somewhere if he texts me I would be running back to him ig I'm losing all I'm self respect since back 2 years I have been like this I changed my attitude from when my college started I tried to be more concerned caring friendly but what I received back all fakeness . 
Ik there's not any coherence in my above msg but believe me no one's concerned ABT u other than ur parents

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