3am Thoughts

When you already faced alot but you again holding yourself up in a hope that it would be good for real, you are trying to tie everything that has already been knotted several times. You're pretending a wide smile in front of inhumane, try to quench their heart that was existential human but lost somewhere. When you see it's worthless finding out anything in them and doesn't work out with them, you finally take aid of spotify to move on with your brutal loved ones. Oopss! When you already faced alot but you again holding yourself up in a hope that it would be good for real... 

Cheating

To someone who wrotes. 
How it feels like staying at home, and no work. 

- It suckkkkss

Idk I'm in a relationship which ik is toxic but everytime I try to come out of it, I just can't. And the boy he shouts and abuses me on really small issues and always blames me for everything. My mental health is compromised and now I cry myself to sleep and feel anxious in almost everything. I now have trust issues and can't socialise because I let this perception of ME get inside myself and now I judge myself really badly (which I don't know is not true) but still can't get all things out of my head. Everytime he just pushes me so hard that I get a feeling that I'm useless n I shouldn't stay alive n I hurt myself sometimes... I cause pain to myself for loving him. Ik I should come out of the relationship but love doesn't let me n he doesn't respect me at all.😞

Love

Maths mai koi kaccha hai kya?

Adulting

Breakup

Today was the day 1 of challenge #1 Wake up at 5:00 am.
My worthlessness was about to make me fall back asleep, saying 5 minutes more, but then I saw a good morning text from someone and it made me smile.
So I washed my face. Listened to music, planned my day.
I WAS HAPPY.
Tried the workout but was feeling too weak to do it properly.

And then a small incident triggered my worthlessness and that made me cheat on my day and crying right now.

Its not the first time I wasted my day like this but the worst part was that I felt every moment of that worthlessness lying in the bed.

Till when I will be like this? When will this stop? Will this ever stop?
Since I am not really passionate about anything there was nothing at all which made me get up from that for 4-5 hours, until the feeling of uselessness became unbearable and started hurting my chest.

Its not even in me to motivate myself anymore. It will feel like fake promises

I also have a huge headache because of oversleeping and I don't know whether I would be able to sleep on time to continue the challenge.

Stress

Hello

Friends

Boys can we talk? ( please age more than 22) 

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