Never experienced a love at first site kinda thing ...but now actually did ... How to cope up with it ...its increasing gradually :)?

Abhi

khushie

3am Thoughts

Even when everything is over why do i still cling to a hope? A false hope?

Will I stop loving someone else if I don't contact them for some longer duration ?
Anybody did that ? How many months did it take?

I feel so used. Why do you have to treat me this badly? And why did I let you treat me this way? All I have done is loving you and this is what you do in return? You can't even make space for me in your life but you can text me when you're in the mood? Is this what your love is? Calling me difficult and paranoid when you drag me along this mess? You're so happy with your life and here I am being not even able to sleep. You've hurt me so bad than anyone else, I really thought you wouldn't treat me like this in a million years. And even after all this I keep on loving you......

Breakup

Let's talk about memories! 
Tell me your most favorite memory!

In another life, I wouldn’t want to meet you again. If we ever meet again in a different lifetime, I’d spend my life avoiding you. I wouldn’t want to feel this much pain ever again.

I may have been hurt before, but those people, when we connected, I always felt like something was off with them. With you, it was genuine. You noticed and remembered all the small details about me, even those I only mentioned in passing. It amazed me everytime you recalled. You truly cared even when I never thought you would. Your concern was real and genuine and I felt it.

With those other people, they’d make me believe that they had an emotional connection with me, although their actions didn’t match their words. You were the opposite. You always said that you didn’t really care that deeply for me, or so your words say. But, your actions always betrayed you. That was why it didn’t bother me that you weren’t saying it, because I could feel it, even when you were trying so hard not to show it.

It was a beautiful story to live, no matter how short. It was magical for me. But, now that it has to end as soon as it started, it hurts so deeply. We both knew it was a temporary high. We both knew we were doomed from the start, but we didn’t care. We went for it, and we were happy.

But, that story, no matter how beautiful, was just borrowed and was not meant to last. Our knowledge of its eventual end does nothing to cushion the pain when the end finally arrives. We both are hurt, but you are right that this is for the best. I cannot tell you goodbye, because I really want to stay, but then I am left with no other choice but to just stay away.

This love might have been magical, but the pain is also excruciating. I don’t want to ever feel this pain again, whether in this lifetime or in another. So, in another life, I wouldn’t want to meet you again. In another life, I wouldn’t even dare to talk to you. In another life, I’ll correct the mistake of ever entangling my life with yours. I wish you happiness in this lifetime and in another. But in another life, I wouldn’t want a do over. 💔

Every cycle comes to an end, but the pain of the unavoidable end doesn't hurt. At least not as much as it hurts to know that moving on to another phase in my life means leaving you behind, not that I want to but is almost a defined fact that soon enough you will be just a memory, a familiar name from those good old days.
Maybe it’s for the best, maybe it means it’s finally time to leave behind all the unresolved feelings that your name evokes deep inside me.
But it still hurts.
And I’m not even sure why.
Maybe because I love you, or have loved you somewhere along all this years. I don’t know for sure.
Maybe because no matter how much things changed you were always there, a strangely stable presence for a somewhat weak relationship.
But it hurts especially because of all the times I failed to leave you behind in the past, even though I always knew it was for the best.
Nothing lasts forever so how could I expect us to? But you were there, and every step I took hoping to get away I always ended up closer to you.
I don’t even know what you are to me, especially because I have no idea what I am to you.
And even if I try to hide it, I still hope you know that you occupy a big space in my heart, and I truly hope that there’s a space for me in yours.
Above all the biggest pain comes from knowing that in ten or some years, I may hear your name, and it may even sound familiar, but I may also not. And then we wont be friend, colleagues or god knows what, we will be strangers.
And then I will finally have let you go.
Even if it hurts.
Even if it breaks my heart.
Even if you never find out (either because I never understood or because I never told you) how much you mean to me.
And that’s why I need to let you go.
Because my head can’t be forever hung up on what we could have been if I had at least gathered up the courage to tell you.
But I didn’t, and I am still deeply attached to you.
Because no matter what ups and downs we might have had, I will be forever grateful to have had you by my side for so long.
And I hope someday I can tell you all of this.
I also hope we can have a proper goodbye, because hopefully the pain of leaving you will hurt a little less if I have the conscience that I at least said goodbye.


Relationships

I miss you.

I realised that I hate myself, I hate that even though you hurt me, I still stupidly have a place for you in my heart. I hate that I feel like my bounders are moving - I’m scared that one day I’ll end up being one of those wives that has a husbands that cheat but all they will say is “its okay, as long as he knows to come home”
I hope I don’t become like this.

I’m scared to let all my friends know what happened, im scared that if I tell them how you hurt me, 
and if I go back to you.
I’m gonna be slapped silly. 
I wish we both tried harder in this relationship.
I wish we both reached out a bit more.
I wish we were both abit stronger.

Anxiety

I'm not moving on but I'm letting you do your thing. I may not be talking to you, but if you would call or message me,I will respond.

I may not greet you in the morning, but you're the last person I think of before I sleep. I'm just focusing on myself, but I can't deny that I'm missing you so much.

I wish. I could talk to you, but I know where I stand. I know my worth and importance. You will always be here. My heart will remain open for you.

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