Need to figure out alot of things. Don't know from where to start. 
But I should really start with the work there's no point of sitting idle (just saying for myself) and just daydreaming.
 Hope I reach to that position where I want to be.

You will reach, you just have to start somewhere so start with making routine it will help you 

i have suggestion for you . write down all the things which you need to figure out , you will some clarity on what is what this way

Life

I hate Mondayssssss :(

3am Thoughts

I am done dor everything
I am just 18 years old
In this point of my life I should be worrying about whether I have a career or not
My love life
Any boyfriends or not
Instead I worry about that will I ever be good enough for someone to marry me
And my mother on top of all that is constantly there to remind me that I am fat and no boy will chose a far girl
Wow
I mean you are my mother the least you could for me was this
I was bullied throughout my school life
Betrayed and threatened and what not
Now I just feel like why was I ever not thin!!!
Was being a thin girl so important
That my entire childhood I was taunted for that

Society

This isn't me anymore...

Depression

Intehaan ho gayi intezaar ki!! Aai na kuch khabar "we work hard, but party harder" krne ki😭....

Hi everyone. 
Please suggest me the right thing.
If my best friend/ partner had an argument with one of the another friend and stop talking to him. In response my partner also stops talking to him. Now I am in dilema that ..
1. Should I talk to him normally as we did previously?
2. Should I not talk to him as he is not talking to my partner?


Conflict

🩷

I knew  I was
In love.


I was thinking About you
Without even
Trying.

🩷

Love

How to know if a guy is geniune or fboy/ playboy?

Confusion

I had expressed my love feelings to her, and she didn't reply to my message.
Now, I am asking your opinion whether she likes me or not after reading the following message I sent to her...

My message to her:
And, the reason I wrote the email to principal regarding to implement Uniform in college was...because my counsellor had told me to delete all the chats with you and focus on studies, so then I followed her advice and I deleted the chats with you, so after deleting all the WhatsApp chats with you, then the chat was empty so I was unaware that I enabled Disappearing messages with the new chats so after deleting the chats with you, it was mentioned that Disappearing messages is enabled with your chat so I thought you enabled the Disappearing messages with my chat (I was unaware that it was actually me...I realized it later)  so that was the trigger to write the message in class group to suggest Remedial classes, subject presentations, Parents Meeting.
So afterwards I researched and came to a close conclusion that when I fall in love with you that time, you wore sleeveless dress (thus light fall on you and exposed your beauty to me and I experienced a experience - let's call that love). Now you may question, there are many girls in the college who used to wear western dress so why I don't experience love with them? 
Maybe it's because they're exposing their beauty but it's cosmetic and in your case, it's natural beauty which is very few in 21st century and that's why I experience a strong feeling with you. I don't know the other parameters why I experienced love feelings with you. Means on the first day of your college in the classroom, when you sat next to my bench, that time I got feared and afraid of you(I was trying to resist the love feelings from you, because I give importance to Career means for a person will fear pimple if he or she give importance to skin care,  similarly at that time, I was afraid of being in love with you because I used to give priority to Career. I was so afraid that I was shifting the bench in which I was sitting, I was trying to escape that situation and innermost I was crying a little bit, I was too nervous) 
Anyway... So, to avoid further love experience with any girl, I suggested the Principal to implement strict Uniform dress code, thus covering their body to not expose their beauty.
Note: If a modern girl expose their beauty, nothing will happen to me. 

Now, I told this thing to you because for the past 1 month, you were coming into my dreams everyday.

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