Wadapaav @therealwadapaav
My suicidal thoughts never fail to get me. Every day I commit to my sins and the horrors beyond them.
I have stopped believing in the existence of reality. What is reality anyways? Something you can perceive? I close my eyes and see myself in a different universe trying to relive my forgotten childhood. The raped memories of my soul and the burning of nightmares into my heart like a forged sigil on a fatal knife.
These voices torture my naked eyes, as I can never see them through. Every moment living in the torment of my existence and knowing the truth of loneliness… is torture.
I walk through this city knowing the blood shade fought for its peace and not a being on this earth who values the freedom they are born with. It aches my mind that, I, a person who perceives am declared insane by the world, and the person who chooses not to see the horrors is considered sane in our world.
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I get your point. I can only suffer and not a thing i can do to make it feel better, at least now but hopefully in coming days.
Wadapaav @therealwadapaav
I envy the world for its companions yet I am grateful to have none. The journey from a child to an adult was great, yet I feel not to grow old. I feel the world has nothing left for me and yet it keeps me alive to make me relive my guilt over and over again. When can I escape this castration of life as my soul died but only the body remains to be alive?
Naina Talwar @no_one8
If you are a religious person,I may help you as much as I can…
Wadapaav @therealwadapaav
I am afraid, I am not. I am thankful for your concern and I am really sorry I am not a religious person
Naina Talwar @no_one8
No no,it’s not about belief or something like that. And it’s also not that I help only religious people and all. I asked that because, if he were religious, then he could have talked to God within himself and felt good and even reading texts like bhagvad Gita and all will help him get some positive vibes. I’m not saying that God will come out and help us,but for our own mental peace. Whatever, sorry if someone felt offended. But I’m not promoting any religion here. I never do that,I do respect people’s opinions,choices and beliefs🙏😇
Naina Talwar @no_one8
Are you suffering from childhood trauma? If you get a little clear,I can help you out 😇
Wadapaav @therealwadapaav
I am…I don’t know how to express it…I wrote my thoughts in forms of poems or stories…
Naina Talwar @no_one8
Okk,let me check your profile, the things you’ve shared and the problems which you’ve faced.
Naina Talwar @no_one8
Okk,listen. In life, all of us have some kinds of struggles,pains sufferings. That’s what life is all about,right? We just need to face everything bravely and conquer the evil within us or maybe around us. It’s extremely normal and nothing to worry about. See,with time,we grow,we experience different things and all of these shape us into a personality(or a better version of our own selves). Just thank your own younger self to have overcame such torture and tragedy so bravely. Come on,you’re brave! 👏🥳 And now try to achieve all of your life goals and make that younger self of you proud. Fulfill all the dreams that your younger self had dreamt of and even your current self dreams of. You’re a brave soul,don’t get stuck onto the past,enjoy the present and a great future is awaiting you. It’s life,we’ll have to face both good and bad things,so what? We’ll stop living,only thinking about it? Thank yourself for getting out of such a situation instead of crying over the things that have already happened cause,you can’t change the past,but if you stay positive now,you can make your future brighter. I hope this helps😇🙏
