My parents and sister told me that I'm a very bad person and have bad qualities in life. I had no idea I'm such a bad person. I'm still not able to believe I actually hurt ppl around me. I don't know what to do. I'm not even worth being alive. I wish I was dead rather than hurting ppl. 

I know it's your family but don't let that sink in .why would you think of dying see give yourself the utmost priority. You should be most important to you not people around you .

Mental Illness

I feel completely lost and I feel like a loser... everything was going fine and one night everything changed...I didn't expect that this was coming....uff I trusted him so much and atlast I was the one who has lost many things...now I can't forget him and move one...but he is happy! He always comes to my mind...trust me guys I have trusted him like an idiot and now I wanna overcome him which I can't...and I feel so lonely...just need a person to listen to me.... And the old memories are just hitting me so much lately....

Memories

Songs like “Allah ke bande hasde” is a motivation therapy in 4:11 mins.

My fav line:
“ बिखरे टुकड़ों में अल्लाह की मर्ज़ी का मंजर पाएगा “



Mental Wellbeing

There was a time when my face radiated with constant smiles, a small yet ever-present expression that brought joy to those around me. People would often inquire why I wore such a cheerful countenance, and their presence felt at ease in my company. However, somewhere along my journey, life dealt me a heavy blow, causing me to forget how to smile. Now, those same individuals question the absence of my laughter, perplexed by the tension and anger etched onto my face. Though they still hold affection for me, an undercurrent of fear tinges their interactions. I perceive their apprehension, yet I've come to realize that this change is beyond my control. Just as my previous smiles were involuntary, so too are the anger and tension that now consume me. At times, I feel like a mere automaton, navigating each day devoid of purpose. I find myself shying away from social encounters, no longer investing effort into connecting with others; instead, I choose to avoid them. It is not society or societal norms that have influenced me, but rather a suffocating sense of guilt and regret for failing as a daughter, as a friend, and as my authentic self. Yet, I remain uncertain as to who determined the definitions of "good" or "wrong." Regardless, I find myself trapped within these confines, yearning to break free.



Anger Issues

Tomorrow i have an exam...feeling slightly tensed.....but wish me luck guys....

Anxiety

Ive been feeling really anxious lately in general and my anxiety is effecting me daily. A lot of things I have control over and I’m working in ways to try and solve them. However, when it comes to my relationship, it involves another person that is going through a severe depressive period. I need some advice on how to navigate that?

I just want to climb onto the moon for him, and having to tone that down is hard when I want to give him the best, but we have established that isn’t what’s best for him to meet his needs. 

I guess I just don’t know how to do that, spend time together in small ways or more manageable ways. Like the only thing we’ve agreed on doing is going to the cinema and have a meal before/after. That way it’s a good balance of hanging with eachother, having some down time, and still doing something we enjoy together. 

I was going to suggest we go on walks in different areas, but it is quite cold right now. Maybe need to pack a hot picnic and some tea or something because the weather is super cold😅

Another thing that makes me anxious is when I hear he’s socialising and having fun with his friends and colleagues, and though I’m so happy for him that he’s able to have fun and take opportunities to enjoy himself. I do wonder why he’s struggling to do that with me? Makes me feel unworthy. And though I have asked him if I should be taking that personally, he has been frank to tell me that I shouldn’t be taking anything personally or seriously and that he is trying his best in everything. So you would think case closed? But my anxiety isn’t letting my automatic, instructive thoughts be any easier.

Sorry it’s super long, lots of thoughts and overthinking I appreciate all constructive advice and words of support ❤️


Being so unpredictable in life is giving me every second to learn something new. Changes which is alone a constant term in today's world. Has anyone ever met someone who doesn't change their love towards you even you changed your behavior & priority towards them. Just comment about such special person here I just wanted to know how many of them this world have now because such people's are RARE. You are lucky if you have one. 

Life

Is it okay for people to feel low when their "close friends" are out there having fun travelling and adventuring without informing them or letting them know as to what happens in their life? Coz they also forgot to send her a birthday gift when she did everything she could to make them feel special on their b'day. So is it okay for her to feel sad and low if those "close friends" of her are choosing not to make her a part of her life anymore out of the blue?
I really hope someone replies to this. 

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