My parents always used to tell me to eat my food because there are so many other kids who don't have the luxury of eating what I eat and now I feel like I always have to finish my plate or I feel bad for not eating. at the same time I also feel so bad for eating it all. People always comment on how I eat my food so fast and how I always finish my food. 

Body image

I’m feeling like shit today 2 weeks ago my girlfriend broke up with me and then 3 days later went and kissed my friend who I had been talking to most about how I felt about the whole situation I felt betrayed hurt and had these negative emotions that I never thought I would have I’m holding on for some reason to the small possibility that she might want me back but deep down Ik that’ll never happen again everybody says that I need to stop caring about other so much and start focusing more on me which idk how to do I’ve only every thought about other people I hide my emotions so people won’t worry they think that I’m this happy outgoing person who never gets sad but that’s not tru at all.

Sorry to be blunt and despite the chances of sounding bad , i need a girl to talk to :(

Lonely

Guyyzzz 
Finally uninstalled instagram and snapchat. 
It was hard but I managed somehow
Had to break my 930 days snapchat steaks..I cried a little but had to for my amazing future! 
So yaa.. just wanted to share this and also so in future I can look back to all this and just be proud of what sacrifices I made for the future 🥺

Happy

I just want to hold her and hug her tightly and kiss her


Love

November 15, 2021

Why is it so easy to let go of a person but letting go of the memories so hard? Maybe because the memories you had with her were the best memories of your life. Every day you try to be the best version of yourself, but also, every day, you remember the times that you were the best version of yourself because of her. You remember why you want to be the best. And that's because of her. Now you tried it again, but this time it's for yourself. Although you tried, it just doesn't feel right. You always feel like something's missing. It's like you're always trying to find the missing piece of the puzzle, and you remember that the piece you're looking for is long gone and will never touch your bare skin ever again. Now the puzzle will never be complete. 

Forgetting right now is fucking impossible. All I can do is learn how to live with the pain. And even if somehow I managed, it won't change the fact that I'll never get the chance again to look into your brown eyes, to hold your hands as if they were mine, and kiss your forehead whenever I say goodbye. 

Moving on is now a mere concept. Moving forward is an option. An option that someday I will take so that I can move in. 

Why is letting go so hard? 

Why does it have to be an option? 

Why can't I love and don't think of anything else? 

Is it selfish?

To whom?

They say time heals. And time flies. 

Maybe someday, I'll find myself again in another dimension where I once felt the yellows of life. 




Breakup

Hi. I get anxiety whenever I’m moved to a new project in the office. It feels like I want to runaway and cry out loud. Its so tough for me to accept new things or beginnings. I’m kindof a person who likes to have less pressure and want to enjoy life. I need money to survive but this anxiety about anything new that shows up makes me hate my life. I feel scared to experience anything new. Why am I like this. I feel chills in my heart when someone new pings in. Why am I like this? How can I survive in this world if I am this coward? I was never good at making friends and If I do, I'm stuck for life with them. What should I do to overcome this. I’m 30 and I feel like an immatured person. Please help me.

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