My only relief is to sleep.
When I'm sleeping, I'm not sad, angry, lonely, upset, crying. I'm nothing

Actually I'm not feeling anything at all. 

3am Thoughts

I love  traveling

Dreams

I don't know, i m really confused at this moment,  i want to do many things but my mind is not able to do those things .....

Confusion

My bf touched and pressed my b**bs. I neither got aroused nor i pushed him away. It was so quick that i didnt knew what to do. 
WTH is wrong with me. I thought if someone else will touch it , i will feel super aroused, uncomfortable and would have done something but nothing happened. I froze like a statue...☹️😐

Sexual Health

How God has blessed me in and in every moment. I cant take how fast reina(my 4year old) is growing, itz like all my failures and success manafest in her eyes. Its to fast zhes 4 all ready.... shes going to be five.... noooohh. 

Cant a day last half day, and perspective slow down to lenghen my days. So 1 years passes , yet felling like 2 and only growing 1 years.. 

Dammit, im learning to be a father by being a father, yet i want to be a father that is learnt.
 What a predicament.

So fast.. even spending my days with her is not enough . How i wish... my selfish desires.

Marriage

how tf do i stop overthinking everything

One Sided Love

Paus padtoy ka tithe?

Idk how am feeling rn , I feel as if my life has no purpose, and idc tbh like I beat myself up every damn minute for it , saying things like why aren't you doing this why aren't you studying why aren't you working out why aren't you doing your to do list why didn't you shower today why didn't you go for a run this morning, I just don't do anything at all the whole day and then just sit and ask myself why I didn't, ik it's stupid and many of yall will just ask me to get up and go do it all or do one thing at a time but I just don't care enough ig , am done with life at this point, I don't feel like i belong here and I don't feel like doing anything and feel as if am the worst person on planet earth for all the bad things I have done in my past and for the fact that I just sit at home having chips and soda for lunch dinner and snacks and play games and watch reels and do absolutely nothing... 
Hating the way I look everytime I look in the mirror, knowing damn well what I can do to look better but not doing it.. idk what's wrong with me at this point and no matter how many people here just tell me or scream thier throats out , i can't care less... Sorry if this sounds rude but whenever someone says something good to me I just have no reaction and i just don't care about it , those words just don't matter idk why 
I wanna change but I don't feel like it and just feel like killing myself:)

Failure

Hey everyone, how’s it going? So I need a little help. I am doing my Masters in Computer application and i am in the last semester. I am currently doing a internship at a startup too. 

A few days ago I discovered this course in USA its not MS in computer science but something related to that which i wont mention. Its the most sought after course and i have always been interested in that field even if I pursue that in india. 

I have never thought of going out to study and i am definitely not just focused on the “American dream” because i was never interested in that. But the opportunity is a really good one and it is making me think now. I have not given GRE or any sort of exam yet I am dilemma because i have never been away from my family ever, even for a few days and my health was never great when i was a young in my teens and that makes my mom worried. Everyone knows how difficult it will be alone in a different country and once you probably reach there you will have to stay there for about 10 years the very least to earn money otherwise it is useless. 


I don’t know whether i am pulling myself back because i am scared or whether this is genuinely not a good idea?

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