Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

My mom messaged me this morning telling me that my dad had passed away because of diabetes but i didn’t even get to meet him last time i saw him i was only 6 months old and he had promised me that he would visit me again… But how am I supposed to meet him now. I got called fatherless for being pansexual and asked for a father reveal and it hurts because they don’t know how I feel about that… I want cry but I don’t wanna seem weak.