My father was a farmer and stayed in the village with my mother and grandparents. He sent me to city for studying at a very early age. I get to see only on festivals and special occasions. As a child, living away from their parents, changed a lot in me. I started to remain quiet and still do. Barely talked to my dadβ¦even in college we talked like only 30sec (about money and health). Never spend time together. Never went on vacation with my family.
And now he is no more. Lost him to corona. I really miss him, wanted to say lot of things to him, wanted to go on vacation with my family. I donβt even have a photo with after 3rd class.πππ
I donβt know whose fault it wasβ¦he was always busy with the workβ¦even my grandfather didnβt feel the need to give my break. I REALLY HATE MYSELF AND SOME PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY.
People just burden one man with a lot of work and when he die, all they say is βhe didnβt take care of himselfβ and I am like βYou didnβt gave him time to do anything elseβ.
Wish you strength in this tough time! May his Nobel soul Rest In Peace!
Thanks
Please donβt blame yourself. Itβs just destiny. Learn good thing from your father and make it work.
Itβs hard to stay putβ¦
Itβs hard to stay positive.