My father was a farmer and stayed in the village with my mother and grandparents. He sent me to city for studying at a very early age. I get to see only on festivals and special occasions. As a child, living away from their parents, changed a lot in me. I started to remain quiet and still do. Barely talked to my dad…even in college we talked like only 30sec (about money and health). Never spend time together. Never went on vacation with my family.
And now he is no more. Lost him to corona. I really miss him, wanted to say lot of things to him, wanted to go on vacation with my family. I don’t even have a photo with after 3rd class.😞😭😭
I don’t know whose fault it was…he was always busy with the work…even my grandfather didn’t feel the need to give my break. I REALLY HATE MYSELF AND SOME PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY.
People just burden one man with a lot of work and when he die, all they say is “he didn’t take care of himself” and I am like “You didn’t gave him time to do anything else”.
Wish you strength in this tough time! May his Nobel soul Rest In Peace!
Please don’t blame yourself. It’s just destiny. Learn good thing from your father and make it work.
It’s hard to stay put…
It’s hard to stay positive.