Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

My father has anxiety issues and he takes pills. He is so careless and irresponsible sometimes. He loves me so much, but he don’t what i want. i can’t rely on him or talk my worries to him bcz i worry it would do him harm. He makes his life tough to make mine better but everything always lead to failure. It is as if his entire world revolves around me, and my education and marriage is his only concern. He is not that old but looks so old. He don’t have any social skills he makes everything weird around him. He makes me shame when he sing loudly on public place or when he behave like a savage even before my friends.
I have this terrible pressure now bcz of him. I feel so bad for him. I need to be successful for him and make him happy and this pressure is killing me. He don’t have confidence these days and I can’t do anything about it. Sometimes I wish how relaxing it could be if i have a strong father by my side.