my days have been so bitter lately, i struggle with my self everyday to be happy. well this is what happened a few months ago. i had a boyfriend who was crazy about me, couldn't think about leaving me or nun of that. until after 2 months, he said and i quote ''I've been overthinking about us, i am so scared, being with you doesn't feel like before. i lost feelings for you". those words made a hole in my heart. i told him we should have a break and focus on ourselves for now ,until everything is good with him again. this break feels so awful, is like i have this scar on my heart that tears open everytime i try and act like everything is ok between us. it's just crazy how somebody you love with all your heart suddenly lost everything he felt for you in 2 months. :(

Love is fragile these days... I hope the break you guys have taken will fetch some good results to you guys

I have an ex boyfriend. He is really good with me, and still wants to be with me but i kinda feel like i don't love him the way he does, that's the reason i break up with him in the first place. I doubted myself for that, and till I can't understand what to do. Since i started doubted that i don't love him and care the way he do, i called off our relationship, he thinks i was playing around yet all i wanted from stopping this relationship is to let him go and not keeping him and being selfish.
What do you guys think?

Anxiety

 I just needed someone to talk to but basically I was talking to this guy sorta for abt 3 months and abt 3 days ago I was texting him as I normally do and I told him that I couldn’t hang with him because I have sorta strict parents he said it was fine he was going through something but wouldn’t tell me so I just told him that I think he should have time to himself but I worry abt the having strict parents changed everything idk

Overthinking

Me and my boyfriend were in a relationship for 3 years, we broke up last year in December 2020. We still use to talk because we weren’t able to move on. And then we completely stopped talking. We broke up because our parents were against our marriage. We loved each other. Now since 2 months he has started liking someone else and he told me he wants to move on because he tried but my parents won’t allow me to marry him and so he told me he like this girl and will date her soon. But I have not loved on. He is my life and I can’t stay without him. My heart tells me he still loves me and he will come back after some months, but I am confused because when I told him come back to me , he said no he has moved on now and he told me not to wait for him because he really likes someone else. My heart is shattered. I don’t know what to do. Please help me someone. Please guide me here. 

I'm new here, but I really need somewhere to express myself and someone to hear me. 
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   I hate myself. So fucking much. I can't even send gift to my boyfriend without messing things up. He said I'm strong. I'm not. I'm fucking weak. I can't talk to people. I can't interact with them. I'm just pathetic. I hate myself. Not my body. Just me. My way of thinking. My way of expressing things. And just overall how I can't make decisions and help anyone.
   I can't help him with his problems cause he's older and mature and he turns to her. She's good friend. I'm jealous and I'm hurt they spend so much time together. I have no right to tell him to stop talking to her cause he lives so far away.. and I don't want to. I just want to be on my own. Cry my eyes out. Be angry on him. Forget about everything and just not hurt anyone with my existence. I'm hurting him by lying and just being there.
   This sucks and I'm lifeless. I looked in the mirror today and I was emotionless. I'm drained and I don't want to get better. I like crying. I like when he is here for me. I like being in the middle of attention and asking for his help. But I don't like that I'm like this. Fuck this life. 

Exhausted

I am ssooooooooo fuckingggggg  tiredddddddddddddddd. I dontttt want to be in this relationship in which iam........ My bf sayes he cant live without me and needs me and I cant say no to himmmmmmmmmm...... He says he is getting depressed........... and needs me and I dont knowww......... I am justtt so frustateddddd.................. He says if i dont stay with him he wil end up doing something wrongggg............ Fuckkk ...............................

Boyfriend

I am a mistress and I feel bad about this.I dont like this but the problem is that I am in a foreign country,without family and trying to work hard but the money that I make are not enough to have a decent living,so I need some support.I met that rich man and he is giving me money in exchange for intimacy.The problem here is that I dont like to sleep with him and I do this only because of my situation .I feel ashamed because I know I am not a bad person and if I wasnt in such a situation I would never do that ,and I am not trying to break him and his wife(actually I feel sorry for her) and I would never want such a man for me as a husband.Does the fact that I sleep with him because I need money and my money are not enough makes me a bad person?is this shameful?

Love

I'm in too much pain, he was my first love and he'd been cheating on me now he's gone and he couldn't even do it face to face he did it over text, I was in love with him and I still am he made me feel like a whole new level of love when I was with him 

Breakup

I like and choose to be secretive about my relationship with my boyfriend....but today I feel terrible with what he did.... He landed at the airport and told me he will be taking a cab... Instead our common friends picked him up... He could have informed me about this... I would have never called....Instead he didn't choose too and when I called that's when he said he's with them.... He asked me why I called and how's my day etc... (Being formal) ..anger gushed into me and I said everything ok.. he asked why am I sounding so low all ok... I said I am alright got loads of work and hung up.... All the spotlight right at me.... Feels so terrible.... or am I anxious.... Please correct me if I am wrong.... But I feel really terrible....I don't want to let my common friends know that I am constantly in touch with him.... Please advise...

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