My dad won't stop abusing me he screamed at me for nothing but resting my head at the couch hand in the morning because my head was aching he said things like go die and stuff just and just because I rested my head and he doesn't like it what did I do wrong he threatens to take My phone away just because I'm not able to answer sometimes what have I done why do they abuse me like this I wanna be happy I wanna live a normal life 

Try to understand her point yaar dont say this mybe there's more to her story i would go n talk to this kid bcoz my dad is same infact it started with small arguments but lead him to started hitting me daily so please let her speak yaar
U never know

Probably u r one i guess from ur thoughts 

U know ppl like u i cant waste my time on them n even i can abuse but i cant stoop so low like u so m gonna go bcoz ull spread dirt anyway coz ur minds full of it

Depression

Met my dad for the first time in 19 years... he just came and act like nothing happened.. my mom is acting lovely dovely with him... should i be happy about it? But how can i forget the time we suffer bcz of him and just call this stranger DAD... 

3am Thoughts

I don't my dad and he doesn't know me. we live in the same house my parents aren't divorced. he doesn't know my age he doesn't know how many friends I have (I'm not popular the answer is 3) he doesn't know my favorite color he can't name 1 of my friends. but I know about him and do I like him? maybe but he LIKES me. he's always more calm and generous but it's because I don't have a personality. it's because I always say sorry and stop talking that he likes "me" we only talk when I need a ride or money he only talks to me when he fights with mom (even then I approach him to beg that he apologizes mom) I always get nervous around him because he's basically a stranger. I get really nervous so whenever I have a question I ask my mom to tell him. I can't remember the last time I talk to him about a problem. I bet he doesn't even know how much I was bullied in middle school and high school. I'm so tired of crying about my dad I wonder if he remembers that I'm in another city now 

Family

Ok so i have a very loving and an protective father. My father has very strong political views and cannot stand being wrong abt it and wouldn't mind or find it wrong to demean someone really badly if they do not support his point of view irrespective of their age and gender or even relation. He uses derogatory, aggressive and abusive language to demean a political party or a person. He does that every single day which affects me and my mother (especially during the lockdown) We have often tried to made him understand but his behavior continues after a few days. It has happened that once we try to correct him he either takes it lightly and changes the topic or when we seriously complain to him abt his behavior or how it is affecting us he gets really really defensive ( aggressive and shouts) and stops talking to us for a few days ; i understand that it is abt his male ego,(for other matters he is ready to quietly listen to me even if give him a firing 😂😅). How do i not get affected by this . I really don't care abt that politician but he goes on and on and on with everyone he meets while using the same type of language . I just dont want to get affected by it at all.

My father is so toxic he literally hates me he never talks to me in a good way he always keeps on shouting he behaves like I m his enemy ghar ka mahol unke wajah se itna negetive rehta hai ab muje unse threat feel hota hai 
We have no bonding bahut kharab equation hai unka aur mera 
No matter what he is never happy at home... 
His nature is so ajib it is very tough staying with him

Frustration

Hi. My father is unemployed. He doesn't work. He doesn't earn. And for the past 1 year he didn't even go outside the house. He remains inside the house 24 hours. He lies in bed all day long. Me and my mother is very tensed. I have my college starting from next month. If this continues then I won't be able to leave my house and study and live in another city peacefully. Me and my mom are going through a lot. We are unable to sleep and eat for all these stress. I don't know if he will be able to give my college fees also. But I don't want to destroy my future. He doesn't even want to see a therapist. It feels like He don't want to take any responsibilities. I'm going through a hard time. Plz I need some help and advice. 

M so tired of my dad plssss..... Whats wrong with just staying silent, stop cussing me. I wont care if u take my phone... Stop lying u were angry stop blaming me for everything. Normalize having peace. I don't wanna get involved in ur chaoss... I hate when u get angry and cuss me with ur bad words..stop doing itttttttt. Just stop

Anxiety

I had a panic attack ot and anxiety attack about joining a zoom call for English tutoring , I have no idea why. When I told my dad he said that I was a liar and I didn’t actually have one, btw he was downstairs eating dinner with my sisters and grandparents so there was no way I was gonna go down there in the state that I was, plus he has never been helpful with my panic attacks in the past, anyway he proceeded to tell me that I have no clue what it is like to have problems like that, and that he has have anxiety for 40 years ( he’s 44) and that I’m just manipulative and trying to get out of doing the call. My younger sister later stepped in trying to back me up. My dad kept yelling at me for 15 minutes and eventually stormed off, he went for a drive and came back, my sisters when to talk to him while he was in the car and he told them that I was close to being kicked out to my mums who is an alcoholic ,so there was no way I’d go there but my dad said didn’t care where I went, he did t kick me out but I can’t remember what happened after that, most of it is a blur, although this happened last month

 I have had depression for a long time.. all pf reasons for feeling depressed is becoz i think im not good enough, im useless and people dont like me.. all this feelings started becoz of my mom.. verbal abuse and physically beating me up and constantly saying im the reason she couldn't do anything she wanted in life.. even wen i told her about an incident of sexual abuse to her, she just said to me that it happened to her and its not a big deal.. this led me to have several incidents of sexual abuse becoz she said its okay and she told me not to say to my dad becoz he will get angry.. so i never said to my dad abt any form of abuse i had.. physically im not doing good too.. im in a chronic stage of an illness.. recently I've been having an urge to kill myself.. all the trauma she did to me keeps coming back.. i have a lovely boyfriend and i have discussed abt this with him a lot and he has helped me out throughout.. but the trauma never goes away.. every night it keeps coming back at me and haunts me.. im not able to focus on my life, my work.. i hate my narcissistic mom so much.. wen will these trauma go away??? I tried to talk with my mom abt the things she did but she says it was all becoz she wanted to make me strong.. but i didnt want to be strong.. i wanted to be the small little girl.. and becoz of her I've been through so much shit that just broke me down and let other people use me up.. wen will even come out of this? Everytime i see her it reminds me of all the things she did to me and all that she is doing now.. i wanna run away from her but i cant.. 

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