My dad Is always Yelling at Me. He always Makes me Feel I am worthless and Always Orders me to do things. Now I am Not Liking Him anymore because its been happening Since years I AM DONE WITH HIM.

Parenting

I'm so done with my dad .
He's life is already so tangled 🪢 y he wants us to be like him? Y he wants us to go in a path where he wants ??? He's Just like to ruin everything 🤦

3am Thoughts

my dad was an abusive asshole.he started to abused my mom when i was 3/2 and he started to hit me when i was around 10/9 i guess. theres one time when he hit my head on the door for 2 minutes straight bcs i sleep at 5 am.i cant sleep bcs i was too nervous for my school interview.and then he bang my head on the door 🤣

Child Abuse

Today my father beat me a lot after drinking alcohol… I was feeling very restless so I sat alone in the room and started studying, then he came after drinking alcohol and started beating me. They hit me so hard that I got bruises somewhere on my body... 🥺🙁

Emotional Abuse

My Dad is angry

Depression

I hate my dad. He has no courtesy, no compassion towards others, no common sense, no chivalry, does not respect my mom. Does not have basic human values, screams ALL THE FUCKING TIME. Raises his voice on all of us ALL THE FUCKING TIME. Talks bad of the dead people. Is relieved when someone is in misery. Emotionally abuses my brother. He is happy when my brother and I fight. Does not listen to anybody. He is the most selfish, most toxic person I have ever met in my entire life. 

My relationship with my father is becoming confusing. I have always found patriarchal society very annoying, and seeing my father scolding my mom, while she does all her work, telling me to learn household chores, or telling me to not get a tattoo, or probably telling me to do something because I am girl, and I am supposed to do it, has made me a rebel. I don't listen to whatever he says. I avoid him, I can't sit with him and listen him talking about such things. He is a very good person, but just the patriarchal part of my father, and his anger scares me so much. I don't even talk to him because I am scared that he would scold me if I don't agree with his viewpoint. 
When I don't listen to him, he says that maa ne bigaad dia hai, and zubaan chalne laggyi hai. 
I don't know what to do

I grew up with a dad who never really was around and if he was we never talked for than 3 minutes. The only time that he did something for me was giving me his jacket to wear and I don't know if I'm just sad, angry, or something else but this jacket is like the only thing that makes me feel safe even for a few minutes. I'm angry and upset that he never really was a good dad and I don't know if I can even call him one but I just can't let it go. Maybe because it smells like him or it makes me feel like he actually cared about me for 5 minutes. Anyways I wear this jacket every single day and I always hear people saying I look homeless and stuff because his jacket is huge on me and in general I always look tired and stuff so i get it but it still hurts to hear. I don't know if its better for me to just not wear it anymore I just don't know anymore. 

Family

I came to stay with my parents after a long time. My Dad and I never got along. My aunt and uncle don't think I am a good person. They keep praising my dad. I get it he is my dad and I should listen and all. But there are fundamental issues underlying he has cheated on my mom, I have seen him staring at women inappropriately, he has never shown respect for my hardwork in school and work. Even though I was always an exceptional student, my opinions in childhood were always laughed at, (anything from eco-friendly Ganpati, to asking for basic respect towards women, asking for help at home) however he is very good at communicating with his side relatives, he gives them much easier than I ever got for education. His thoughts align with his side relatives. 
I have always been perceived as a rebel, manner less daughter for speaking back at people. Recently I spoke back at my dad after he criticized new bride's facial features. (We had went to a wedding)

And I became a bad person for speaking back to him. My uncle and aunt were backing him up. The thing is I don't even live with these people anymore, I live abroad. And when it comes to my wedding I am gonna need these people on my side. They don't respect me I don't respect them. I don't know what am I going to do when I will want to get married. Also, I am tired of becoming a bad person. How would you behave going forward in such situation? 



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