Me and my husband have been trying to get pregnant and I slept with the neighbor and the test comes positive I Albany let him know

Ouch, you sure you want to live with the stress & guilt of that? Although, really up to you to decide what you wanna do.

Sexual Health

If you don’t feel loved because of your partner’s ways is it okay if you asked them to change their ways? Or you just have to deal how they treat you. You know unconditional love.

Girlfriend

I don’t like drinking milk, but My dad asks me every single day to have  at least a half glass. Sometimes i do drink just for my dad’s sake ,but sometimes i turn him down. I really hate milk, what should i do? 

Eating Disorder

I wish i could love someone with all my heart , feeling comfortable.
To be able to hug and look at eyes .....

Dreams

I'm 17. But who am I?

I don't know?

What are exactly my values? 

What good values should I build my character upon and on what basis do I select those values?

I have low self-worth. I notice myself, so I know that inside me seeks validation from others in the form of appreciation.

How do I measure my self worth?

I ask myself when will that time come when I'll have self-belief and I'll be completely confident in myself and my abilities?

Cuz rn, I feel powerless.

I have 2 friends. One is someone who is himself dealing with things like these and actually more things than me. Thats how and why we became friends. Cuz we in some sense related to each other.

My 2nd friend is my used to be girlfriend. We got separated cuz we figured out, that it wont work long term.

In the end, I want to say nothing. But what do I need to? I don't know! I don't have th answers.



3am Thoughts

(This is all in a two month time frame)

Today I felt the need to hurt myself. The emptiness I felt is undeniable. My best friend was slowly drifting away and I knew it. She was becoming hostile to me lately and I don't know what I did, but she messaged me today and *in spanish* told me she hated me. After she said it was to the wrong person, but I knew that wasn't the case. 

My other friend who I was growing a little closer to since my best friend had been drifting away told me she felt that I was stealing her online friends (she had recently added me to a chat with them). She said she'd always wanted friends of her own and for a safe place without her real life friends. It made me feel bad.

Also, these past few (more particularly 2) days I have lost a lot of trust in my mother. She promised me something twice and didn't do what she promised (this was in a 2 day span). She also had let her boyfriend spend all of our money and now we're basically bankrupt.

My nan talked about how smart I was, I was a little uncomfortable (for 2 reasons). One of the reasons is she was telling me to help people with my intelligence (I want to be an actress one day), and the second reason is simply I don't know how to react to compliments. When I had told her I wanted to be an actress, she put down my dream in a matter of seconds.

I used to feel lucky and happy about life, like nothing could stop me, but now I realise that life isn't that simple. Somehow I don't feel sad, I just feel empty and betrayed. I feel like i've lost my trust in everything, and it's all at the fault of the ones I love.

Depression

I hate how i look

Body Dysmorphia

Hi. Just want to say thank you for reading this and hearing me out. 

It's been hard to deal with things. There's so much happening. Alot of things that been so hurtful. People or rather can I say family, who won't think twice before saying some harsh words. They think I'm made of stone. The girl with zero feelings. I need a sholder to cry on. I can just cry my heart out, I promise not to say a word but just cry. My heartaches, the pain in my Thorat when I'm trying not to cry and be strong. The thoughts in my head that I have to fight everyday and the washroom I cry in the walls won't tell me what I should do at that point. My parents who'll maybe listen and won't get a replay because God wanted all the good people next to him. The suicidal thoughts I have to fight all by myself and tell myself, you know what girl you've got to be strong no matter what comes your way. How much stronger will I have to be?

Thank you for reading. Sorry if I spoilt your day, but just want someone to hear me. 


Life

What do you do when you like someone and that person is good for your mental health but you are in love with someone else who treats you like shit. What do you choose!? Love or like? 

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