Maybe I wasn't meant
to belong for anyone 
And yet i long to belong 

Social Anxiety

Sometimes I wanna end it all and get lost into thin air 

Depression

I just feel like i dont belong anywhere! 

3am Thoughts

For something new to begin, the previous needs to end. 

Adulting

Day 150 of writing journal entries.

Will I ever really find someone who understands me? Because if I don’t, I don’t think I’ll survive. Only kids my age really understand what I’m feeling, and even then they have their own issues to cope with to, so where am I supposed to seek help? I’ve been to therapy and even they don’t know what’s wrong with me… I only have one reason to live right now and that’s so that I can go to Heaven. If that weren’t an issue I would 100% be dead by now.

Personal Growth

I still can't digest the fact that everyday I'm still here, fighting. It's a surprise that I still can smile watching videos and letting my imagination run wild with a not so functional mind that is full of darkness. I still can't believe that I actually found comfort in places or times that I believed that is supposed to be not happening to me. Like, when I'm staying in my room-it's pretty dark there. I'm still afraid of there but somehow the darkness provides me comfort, it is like a lullaby inviting me to a mini escape. Another thing is once I hate being alone, now I find it interesting, because I'm myself when I'm alone it feels like I don't have to thing of what other people are thinking of me. I can be loud when I'm alone and do all sorts of recreational activities, unlike when I'm with others. I have to mind some things with them. 

But now that school has started once more, I can't do all those stuff anymore. It feels like I'm caged even in my own. I used to hate my solitude but now I'm missing it. It now feels like a distant dream away from anyone's grasp 

Lonely

I am a depressed person. But as now I am seeing the world now. I see everyone is so grown up now a days, even younger people than me are doing good, atleast better than me. And I am just there and everyone is moving on. And gone do far away. I can't see I can stand with anyone in society or my classmates, cousins etc. I am just left behind. Still there where I was before lockdown or even worse. I find myself as a failure. Tho nobody say this, but I see in people's eyes they feel disappointed I didn't grew. I am not smart but dum* and innocent. Life is trash for me. I have nothing. It hurts me. It pains

Life

hi, this the first time i share my feelings here! bcs i am in hard situation and it's getting worst, so i search some web that i can express what i feel and make me feeling better. please be nice! <3
lately things haven't been going the way I wanted. I feel very pressured, people around me also pressuring me. even the closest person I really trust is starting to stay away from me, or maybe she already hates me. I started to be alone and started to hurt my body a little. day by day this is getting worse. i am scared

I feel disgusted by everything sight of other people, even my family. All they does is complain , complain, i cant i cant feel the happiness i wanted . What should i do to be happy. I cant find happiness anywhere. Is it me or other people.

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