Maybe i should just stop, just stop thinking about it. You know, 

*Love at first sight*

How about 

"I LOVE ME AND THATS ENOUGH" ?



Love

There's always a hope for better opportunities and better days

Affirmations

I don’t know why u ignoring me! I don’t know u decided to leave me? If yes just tell me !? Don’t ignoring me ! Face it ! I’m dying everyday. Everyday when I woke up I can felt numbness in my heart. My mind too heavy. My eyes lost is glows. My body aching because I beaten myself. I’m blaming myself for everything. I can’t move on till u tell me u don’t want me. Stop giving me signal! I can’t assume that you are no more in my life. I want it for you tell me you don’t want me! Admit it you can’t save our love from your family. Please 

Anxiety

Today is the day.. exactly one year before.. on this day.. I've found my world.. No matter you came in my life just as a friend.. but see now..I'm sorry that i didn't treated you good or how you needed to be treated.. i admit that i was not matured enough to love you.. but still you loved me so much.. and all i did was just hurt you.. from 1 year.. I'm all changed.. just because of you.. only for you.. thank you for holding me.. I'm very guilty for whatever i did to you.. if i could go back in time on same day as today.. I'll tell myself not to hurt you.. and to get out of that circumstances asap.. but now.. we do love each other so much.. but still i feel we have walls between us.. in this one year I've grown so much.. just because of you.. so thank you so much for creating this new me..

3am Thoughts

Yes i know we stopped talking, but I never stopped thinking about you!
I know we cannot be together ever, we never meant to be together, but I know maybe one day you'll forgive me and I'll forgive you for whatever happened with us, maybe it's all in destiny...even my pen cries whenever I write about you...

People do say forget bad memories even if we forget it.
What about the person who had make that memories bad.
That person is living his/her life to the fullest without any complications in his/her life.

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I don't know how love feels like anymore. It's been 2 years since I've felt butterflies and now I just want to feel them again

Every cycle comes to an end, but the pain of the unavoidable end doesn't hurt. At least not as much as it hurts to know that moving on to another phase in my life means leaving you behind, not that I want to but is almost a defined fact that soon enough you will be just a memory, a familiar name from those good old days.
Maybe it’s for the best, maybe it means it’s finally time to leave behind all the unresolved feelings that your name evokes deep inside me.
But it still hurts.
And I’m not even sure why.
Maybe because I love you, or have loved you somewhere along all this years. I don’t know for sure.
Maybe because no matter how much things changed you were always there, a strangely stable presence for a somewhat weak relationship.
But it hurts especially because of all the times I failed to leave you behind in the past, even though I always knew it was for the best.
Nothing lasts forever so how could I expect us to? But you were there, and every step I took hoping to get away I always ended up closer to you.
I don’t even know what you are to me, especially because I have no idea what I am to you.
And even if I try to hide it, I still hope you know that you occupy a big space in my heart, and I truly hope that there’s a space for me in yours.
Above all the biggest pain comes from knowing that in ten or some years, I may hear your name, and it may even sound familiar, but I may also not. And then we wont be friend, colleagues or god knows what, we will be strangers.
And then I will finally have let you go.
Even if it hurts.
Even if it breaks my heart.
Even if you never find out (either because I never understood or because I never told you) how much you mean to me.
And that’s why I need to let you go.
Because my head can’t be forever hung up on what we could have been if I had at least gathered up the courage to tell you.
But I didn’t, and I am still deeply attached to you.
Because no matter what ups and downs we might have had, I will be forever grateful to have had you by my side for so long.
And I hope someday I can tell you all of this.
I also hope we can have a proper goodbye, because hopefully the pain of leaving you will hurt a little less if I have the conscience that I at least said goodbye.


Relationships

what have you done to me? The fact that you can still utter the words "I love you. you're my bestie" after what you've done to me is sickening and that's the least to say. You ruined me. I couldn't eat for weeks, I woke up constantly from nightmares. It was like someone ripped out my heart and stomped on it. You told my deepest darkest secret to my friend behind my back. the very secret i TRUSTED you with. you gaslighted me, guilt tripped me. Threatened to off yourself so many times. I had to be talked off a cliff TWICE so i didn't do something to myself because of you. I was about to relaspe in EVERYTHING. And now you're saying i didn't even care about you?? you're acting like i wasn't the person to put my life on the line for yours. I loved you, i trusted you, i cared about you. whenever someone talked bad about you, i defended you. And you even deny the stuff you did to me. why would you lie? i grew an emotional attachment to you. I saw a life with you. I feel idiotic. i feel stupid to even think i had an OUNCE of care for you. 
Not only that but you hurt my best friend. you hurt her in the same way you hurt me. you make us terrified. you hurt us both. we both hate you. 

I would never drop names but since i don't have that respect for you anymore and you dropped my friends name i don't care @jonahleewalker

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