3am Thoughts

I am getting jealous of my cousins 
they did not do anything but after graduation
the cousins of my age get married to the rich smart guy
they are enjoying their life 
and I am still studying so could I settle and enjoy my life

I think they just get the shortcut
 

Life

Anyone from Kolkata?

I need to get my upper lips and eyebrow done today but I’m so tired 😂😭

Why do I have to fight myself to be happy? Why can’t I feel loved?

Family

no one talks with me am I too boring?


I have 8 months left to the most important examination of my life, for which I literally fought with everyone to take. It's two years worth syllabus and I haven't even touched my books. This isn't even an exaggeration I haven't done anything, the pandemic happened I found a way to cheat in exams, browse instead of studying and kept distracting myself. it has always been there like I want to study but I can't, even if I remove all my distraction I just stare at my books. Now I don't have a backup plan for college and quite frankly I DON'T WANNA DO ANYTHING ELSE but I am not working for the thing I want to do the most?! what is wrong with me.

Exam

I wish I had a significant someone to hold me close, check on me once a while, hear me talk, stand by me in whatever I do, respect and love me for whoever I am. Is that too much to ask?

Love

sorry for posting again a lot to get off my chest. But I've been sleeping a lot whenever I get home or just get in bed i sleep most of the day now and it's kinda weird to me I've never been like this before. 

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