Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Love doesn’t heal or make anything better without self reflection and change.
-me

As I am always left or given silence on my bad days, to deal with them alone. I’d rather be alone on all of my days and keep the good and bad both to me.
I am choosing this time not to explain or defend or anything, unlike all the other times before.
I take responsibility for time and again waiting for you to get it right and deluding myself away from the truths I know. I take accountability for the fact I thought you will become empathetic and loving towards me and be the family I never had and also that I didn’t want to see what you are and willingly believed that your words hold greater value than your actions. I am sorry for my part in this dysfunctional dynamic and letting you believe that I was okay with being treated the way you treated me and that you could put me at the last of your priorities and your explanation and your choices and reasons will make it okay. I thank you for all the lessons and the exposing my vulnerabilities and flaws as well. I wish you well and leave it on you to decide the sort of, if any interaction you would prefer in the future as we’re neighbours and still have things we share. I dont particularly have a problem keeping our interactions to surface level and necessity wise.
P.s i don’t want anything to do with you anymore if I am being honest and if I want to escape the emotional abuse that’s all that’s left between us.