Log kahte he dukh jhelne se aadmi majboot banta he par mere sath ulta hua he me pahle bahut majboot thi.mere papa ki death achanak se heart attack se hui uss samay b hospital tak mera man majboot tha lekin death ke baad se mera man kamjor hota chala gaya.abhi teen saal ho gae he me career ke lie b struggle kar rahi hu.aaj meri mummy ki tbiyat khrab hui to meri limit cross ho gai sahan karne ki me bahut jyada ghbra gai mummy ab sahi he lekin agar kuch bura ho jata to meri kya halat hoti imagine nahi kar sakti.me kisi bhi situation ko handle karne me pahle se jyada kamjor hoti ja rahi hu.mere man me ab darr beth gaya he.career aur life sab chijo me.

Mental Health

Ye move on itna hectic kyu hota hai😑. I was feeling good till now from the past few days but suddenly I started feeling low, now I am not missing her that much but achanak se bohot gussha aa raha hai 😡. Sari feelings ki bhelpuri ho gayi hai, koi acchi EQ wala friend hi bana leta jiske saamne sab bak saku but ye judgment ka dar sab kharab kar deta hai. 

Anger Issues

Mai jab kisi sa baat karti hu toh mera mann karta hai after baat ki mai saari chats delete kar du I mean ho gyi baat ho gyi kisi ko yaad hi nah rhe and Idk 😶 why saamne wle person ko v kehti hu delete karde chats but Bhai it's a normal talk kis baat sa mai itni insecure ho rhi hu smjh nhi aata hai mai aisa kyu karti hu and it's disturbs me a lot agr nhi ki ho toh .mai smjh ni paa rhi hu Aisa kyu karti hu 

Mere bf ne hi mjhe approch kia tha shuru me bht saare vaade kiye , apna centre of world bna kr rkha lekin ab 2 saal se jyda guzr jane k baad mjhe usse kuch b dil ki baat share krne k liye ghanto ghnto wait Krna pdta hai....uska Mann hota hai koi kaam hota h toh wo bht si meethi baatein kehta h aur wese meri feelings pe dhyn hi ni deta....kbhi mjhse ye ni puchta ki m kesi hu.....agr m kisi dusre insaan se kuch share kru apne dil ka toh usey bura b bht lgta hai...aur khud kbhi sunne ki koshish ni krta......m kbhi kbhi khud ko trapped feel krti hu.... Kbhi wo acha ho jata h kbhi usey koi farq ni pdta....😔😔😔

Relationships

Ek to sale want to talk bolte h fir hm hii bolege to chle jayege to khe post krte ho☠

3am Thoughts

Do you guys believe in Lucky Charms? I have this very close friend of mine, when she Came into my life, I got success in various fields, and when she use to be angry on me, or if we had any conflicts or fights, things usually turned out to be bad. 
Now we are not in touch, as we use to be, and damn, I'm at worst. Like seriously. 

So I feel like she is my lucky charm. I have never failed in any exams whenever she wishes me good luck, and never succeeded if she don't. 
So do you think ki Lucky charm jaisa kuch hota hai? Or maybe I'm overthinking? But I've noticed it a lot of times. Kaafi kaafi baar. 

Idk it feels right for Everyone 
It's my 18th birthday and it happens naa ki you are too excited for it. I don't have any excitement. It's like your parents do something special for you here are no efforts from there side . I'm also ordering my birthday own cake see and I wanted to buy a dress for my birthday I told my mum ki I have a coaching and when I return back we'll go and when I returned back she was doing some household work but she promised me to go with me . It's okay it happens I didn't say anything at that time. In the evening we were about to go then relatives came it's okay I understand that also but today she started putting all the blame on me ki tumhe sab chahiye hota sab kuch karna hota  I am person jo kuch maangta he nhi jab tak usski zaroorat nahi ho but achanak se aapko blame Kiya jaaye aap apne 18th birthday ki saari preparation khud he karo. It's doesn't feel good . How would you guys feel ??

START ACCEPTING MORE,
STOP EXPECTING TOO MUCH.

KYUKI AAKHIR ME SABKO AKELE HI REHNA HAI
YEHI HAI ZINDAGI KA SACH. 💫🤍

-THEUSBMUSIX 

Growing Up

Its weird ki mai kisi se attach hi niii hue bss apne parents ko chorkr mai jb dusro ko dekta hue kisi ke liye roote dekhr tb lgta h koi kaise kisi aur ke life apna time waste kr sakta h ya roo sakta h kyuki mujhe aajtk aisi koi feelings hi nii aayi ki mai kisi se baat kru kisi ke call ya msg ka wait kru ya kisi ke tbyt khrab hone pr care kru mujhme aisa koi emotions aaya hi nahi avi tk idk but mujhe weird lgta h aisa lgta h mai selfish hue kyuki mujhe farak nahi pda maine kisi ke sath kuch glt kiya ho ya glti se krdia ho 🤷‍♂🤷‍♂🤷‍♂🤷‍♂🤷‍♂🤷‍♂🤷‍♂🤷‍♂

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