Life is strange 
At some point of time i was scared to d i e
Then there was a phase when all i wanted was to d i e
And this feeling fluctuates so much

3am Thoughts

my ex and i recorded a video of us performing some well interactions (if you know you know lol) and anyways he posted them on his ig and i guess i should be mad but i’m not gonna lie i look good asf 😂😂 

Never once has someone has anyone ask “r u ok” really wanting the truth like nobody wants to help me cuz humans love seeing people suffer.

Anxiety

Why do I feel that anything and everything I do is just not enough? I am tired of feeling upset no matter how much life gets better. Lagging behind just gives me so much anxiety. And social anxiety literally is crippling. How long does it take to feel you are on track? I feel super done.

People who appear cold and distant are often the ones that care the most passionately. Don't be fooled by someone's demeanour into thinking they don't care. Maintain an open mind and heart, and remember that there is usually more to a person than meets the eye. Look under the surface, and you may discover that individuals who appear cold and unapproachable are the ones who will go above and beyond to demonstrate their care and concern for others. So, never judge someone entirely based on their demeanour, because their chilly demeanour could be the armour that shields their warm and loving heart.

Mindfulness


Hello. I've never expressed myself, but I guess I thought it would be okay for me to do this at least once. I tend to write letters to my guardians just in case anything happens to me and I never got to show what I feel. This is one of them...

It is currently 4/29/21 I am now 13 and writing this unsent letter. I was taken away from my mother when I was 3. I loved my mother, but she was acholic and had problems. My father just didn't want to take care of me and my siblings. It would have been a dream to be taken away and be put into a better home and see my cousins, but it turned into a nightmare. I wasn't saved...I was stolen and put into an abusive household. You told me you loved me. You told me you wanted the best of me. You told me You didn't want me to end up like my mom. However, You weren't helping me. You were really emotionally manipulating me and trying to justify the things you did for me was love when really it was abuse hidden in plain sight. I needed help. I had to escape, but I was trapped and I'm still am. The nice clothes and the things I have to surround me make me second guess if you really do love me and is just doing this for my own good, but the next day I´m crying in my bed with slap marks and pain. I attempted to kill myself because of it. I tried to overdose and I was pretty close to it, but just threw up and got really high. Just one more...just one more pill and I was sure enough to die, but I didn't take the pill. This was recent. You broke me. You tried to change me. You have constantly tried to compare me to people in other states who are smarter than me. I didn't ask to be born. If there was a switch that can make me go extinct I would switch it in a heartbeat. If I was to hesitate then it would be because of my friends. Not you, but for the people who care for me and who I care for back. I love my friends more than you. They help and relieve stress when you just cause them. The girl you tried to fix is now lost and doesn't even know who she is anymore. Am I living my own life? or are you trying to live my life because you don't like the path I'm taking? All I know is that I am 13 years old and occasionally have suicidal thoughts and the only thing that brings my mood up is talking to friends and watching anime, but are you going to take those away from me too? Would that make you happier?

Child Abuse

hi cuties. i hope you’re having a great day, and if not, i hope you know you’re still just as great even if the day is a bit MEH:( find small things to smile about and you’ll get through the day in no time 

Life

Ek haddsa pure zindagi ka sabak sikhata hai

in the word scent which letter is silent?

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