Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

What do think about confidence?

I guess confidence is a choise

Totally agreed

Hey buddy , how you doin?

Somewhat fine. What about you?

Everything is cool. Each and every day is becoming a lot better.

Have you ever started random conversation with a stranger?

To be honest yes…but it was more like the stranger started the conversation first…I was well in this bookstore reading a novel and this guy suddenly approved and we talked for like and hour…it was really strange cause I am a total introvert but I tried my best to socialize cause I wanted to get out of my bubble

This was something i was talking about. I too wanna have these kinds of experiences but as a stranger we have made our own image which is a lot hard to break.

Ikr…he even asked if it were for me would I have approached him and started any convo but I straight up denied that my introvert ass couldn’t handle it and also scared about not knowing if it was actually safe to do so…we can never know a person completely

Hahahaha. You know what ? I cant decide whether i am an introvert or an extrovert. sometime i like to just soak in my own dark thoughts but sometimes when i am travelling i feel like talking to random people and sometimes i even do but most of the times they arent comfortable and it is and so i got this quote "seek discomfort "

I used to be pretty extroverted too a long time ago I was able to hold conversation with anyone and when I think about it…it really amusing too how much I have changed…I’m a really good listener and when ppl talk me I just love listening but I forget to say something when they expect me to…you like…I am listening but I really don’t know what to say…even if it’s the smallest topic I just like to listen instead be bring a part of the conversation…ik that really odd…hehee

Thats how great conversations are held , and listening is something which is really rare these days as people have involved themselves in too many things going through so many emotions and all they want is to be heard by someone. Believe me or not i really want to hold podcast where anything can be discussed any topic be it aliens or just needle. I want to put myslef in these places as there are a hell lot of things in our lives but we just chose not to due to our mind made excuses.

The level at which I relate to you about the podcast…but since o can’t do that ( for no apparent reason) I talk to myself…like a lot…and it’s crazy how long I can go on just talked to myself… could just be talking about anything… reimagining a situation…or acting like I’m being interviewed…or that I’m getting arrested after being cought red handed murdering someone and explaining myself to the police why I had to kill someone…or like roasting someone…and many other situation…it’s really fun cause I normally never speak to anyone…I just discovered a whole new side of myself…it’s creepy ik but it’s really fun…

Daaymm thats strange and something really new unlike the stories that too in bollywood. Dude this much of imagining would lead me to overthink the shit out of me. At this point i have started just ignoring things as in imagining part cuz i have been in overthinking zone as i thought of any possible outcome preceeding my actions. Offcourse we can do a podcast why not? But i am really ducking curious to know the characters you play while u keep a poker face. The only time i talk to myself is when i see situations have gone worse and at that point i talk to myself and calm myself down and its a legit conversation between my mind and my tounge.

Its usually when I am alone which is almost always…but when someone walks in on me having a conversation with myself I act like I was singing or something…the conversation is usually between me and my many moods and personalities…like suppose the situation is someone called me a curse word…I would just plan out all the possible reactions I would have to my different moods…it really becomes strange when I socialize with “other” humans…cause I suddenly forget the whole language…I sound so crazy…😭🤣

This is soo fascinating dude. Why are you alone then? I really wanna know what type of conversation you have… whats the most common personality you encounter?

Curiosity, you have just ignited that shit😂😂😂😂.
Can we chat at same time?

Well it’s usually my bich personality…where I don’t give a duck about anything…or it’s the 'im a scholar and I know everything…or it would be that I have some superpower…it’s fun when you mix all three tho…

Now i am a bit afraid cuz the type of personality you have 😂. Oh sometimes i too go with that " i am a scholar and i know everything" but sometimes i just feel opposite of it.

Feel the opposite…in the sense " I don’t know anything" type…?

And that is how we learn and grow?
What made you join now and me?

I had shit ton of things to talk about but no one ot listen then I came across a reel on IG about how you could talk to strangers and share how you’re feeling while being anonymous…and now here I am…

I was lonely as duck as no one was on the same emotional page as i was. I too got to know about this on IG. I came here , saw people suffering from same issues it gave me a sense of belongingness. I have like a really lot in my mind but i have always been botteling stuff within me. Whenever i feel like venting things out i find myslef in dilemma , to be or not to be anonymous. Then at some point i wanted to talk to someone who really doesn’t know about me. I really like the fact that you can patiently listen while talk a ton of things.

(really sorry for the late reply)
A strange thing about me is that I love reading people…I have spent most of my time just studying people…and when I get to hear their thoughts it fascinates to know how much I don’t know…so even tho my social skills are at the very bottom I love to listen to people…I don’t judge anyone cause I’m simply incapable of that…and many of people around me say so too that they love to talk to me for that reason…it’s really strange tho…but not being capable to judge people will mean that I can never emotionally connect to someone…and that’s one of my really big depression source…I have never been able to connect to anyone…it’s simple just lonely…

I thought you were dead, not exactly you but the character which uses this platform. Just kidding😂. I hardly believe in judging people as each and everyone on this planet is different and people are dealing with their own shit. Either you like someone or you dont and while making judgements you create a space for them in your mind. No definitely not , do you think connection recquires judgement? Talking about my opinion i dont think that in order to connect with a person you have to judge him or her. When you connect emotionally the first symptom is that you feel relief , a sense of calmness , a sense where you can be actually you. Believe me, You are not lonely.

May be you are right about not needing to judge people to connect with them but then there is no other basis on which I can open up to someone. I use logic before emotions which eventually led me to not show any kind of sympathy towards anyone. I have never felt relaxed with anyone till now let it be family or friends. I do, anyway have a few people I am close to and can be myself but I don’t definitely feel relaxed. And making a place in my mind for someone is far from easy.

To open up you need to spend time with that person, usually people tag their relationship like, from now onwards we are friends or girlfriend or boyfriend. Spending time makes a synchrony of bubble that you both like , obviously nothing is perfect and so are marriages and at this point i agree with you that till now, not feeling that kind of relaxation is valid and it may persist . On a personal level i myself have not experienced something of this sort but maybe in future i would forget about not feeling relaxed with someone and by doing so i might feel comfortable enough to open up and feel relaxed. Using logic before emotion is not bad in any sense.

Yesssssssssss!

How are you coping with your current lifestyle?

Currently, i have just soo many ideas in my head but i cant pen them down. What about you?

Right I stay in the shower for like 40 minutes straight with cold water running…I just feel so relaxed cause in shower I don’t really think about anything…it’s really quite and nice

Voice record them?
Struggling to plan a day off 😅

Thats some sort of adventure in itself . Cool😂

For sure , this is it.