Leaving with a good thought to think about

Are you socially real 
Or Real in real life ?


3am Thoughts

Anyone here fan of Haruki Murakami ?
My favourite quote is from Kafka on Shore - ‘’perfect is limitless accumulation of imperfect’’.

Whats yours ?

Other

I got raped by a 25- year old man, precisely 15 minutes ago. I'm 16 and that man is our family friend for a long time. At first he didn't wanna do anything sexual with me cause he knew it's illegal. But then after I talked him into that, cause I was in love with him, he agreed eventually. So I wanted to have my first time with him and it started off consensual but then after it just turned one- sided. He started to be really rough, mean, violent and uncaring. It all went by so fast but he took me in sny position possible. I regret everything and I can still feel him everywhere on/in my body.

Anxiety

I am in a relationship forcibly

Boyfriend

I love him so much

Do you sometimes just feel like crying? Like out of nowhere? Just feel like you need to burst out whatever it is that is inside of you out through tears? 

Life

Worries:
I still haven’t got my period
My broker still haven’t found a tenant for my unit
I can’t find a job that fits my work experience

The only thing that I’m looking forward now is my boyfriend coming here in the coming weekend

Heard today
You missed me?
Was it really me
Or just the melody,
Like 9249 
Remember how it rhymed?
The way you heard my number
And made me give you
Like multiple times,
You used to say
You keep losing it
All i knew was
You didn't feel
The need to save it,
Keeping me on edges
So it wouldn't hurt, to lose.

Used to tell me stories
How days keep you busy
And how you only miss me
During the lonely nights
When your mind
Won't let you sleep,
3 days a week 
I remember
You used to call me
And if i were busy?
It doesn't matter
You were the priority, for me,
Like when i used to say
Let's call it a day
And you always
Came and hug me
How could i refuse it?
You knew i was a loner
And you, my only remedy.

You r my beginning, middle and end <3
#mismatched 💞

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