Lately ive just been alone people all around and shit but my friend isnt even barely talking to me no more and im just becoming more and more alone but im turning 18 soon im terrified i wanna make music and i dropped out if high school at 15 (i got my ged) i just dont know where to go with my life and its crushing my spirits more than they are.

Thank you idk about school and such i struggle a lot in schooling because of my mental health and people around i just wanna make music and leave my bad town

Career

My fiancé is getting a shoulder replacement tomorrow. I feel so self absorbed because I have said to myself like all day “I wish somebody would take care of me”. The idea of being catered to sounds so nice. I’ve catered to my parents who got a kidney transplant. Then my fiancé got a hip replacement. Now he gets a shoulder replacement tomorrow. My sister is also an addict. Feels like it’s been about EVERYYYYYBODY else for almost two years and I’m self absorbed about it and feel terrible. 

Caregiver

I dont know what is stopping me but I cant start working again. I am scared and there is some kind of fear. I Have not worked since last 5 years. I am 28 girl and I feel Like My life is ending. I want to make a career i want to earn money but i dont know what is stopping me. I cant move forward. I cant take a step and i dnt know what i fear. In my mind it has become like I have wasted my life and that 5 years gap is like much muuch bigger.  I wont be able to clear interviews and all this stories... Dont know what to do

Confusion

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Friends

A tree is know by it's fruit 

Quotes

Day 119 of writing journal entries.

I had an interesting day today… when I got home from church I didn’t really do anything, just watched anime and YouTube videos all day. It’s what happened before I got to church that was interesting. There were two little mice, inside of a cup, inside of a cup holder, inside of our car. I don’t know how long they were in there for but they were alive, and I ended up letting them go outside. They were actually really cute, but it freaked me out when I first saw them, I thought I was hallucinating. 😂

I’ve been in a good mood today. Goodnight!



Personal Growth

Hii guys,
I hope all are having a good day and even if you're up to a problem maybe at some point you will heal that issue better than you've expected 💕💕

3am Thoughts

Having emotional fatigue ?🤷‍♀
A lot of my clients in mid to late twenties coming with this trending emotional fatigue  due to this unforeseen hook up culture.🤦‍♀
wherein the one partner is getting attached and is coming up openly and the other is not ready to accept it completely except the physical  benefits.well, my dear,dating is not everyone's  cup of tea.💁‍♀ Especially,  when moves are planned strategically. You could get the fatigue after a lot of emotionally unstable realtionship.
Despite having good sex and everything, you would end up  questioning yourself where are the other stuff ?chasing over getting that pleasure is okay but what about intimacy and stability. 🙆‍♀ 
With everything being said,I am in no sense saying don't go on such apps but know yourself better before trying or experimenting something like that  and being authentic and honest  could be the things that  could savesave you from the post traumatic dating events if any occurs. ( hopefully, no. 🤦‍♀️)Also,there is no wrong or right moves in any scenario,whatever feel authentic to you, continue it with the real genuine connection.Being pushy could be the least attractive thing that you can do.
Alas, everything boils down to self awareness,sweet.🙋‍♀️
ps : it's not even my cup of tea,rather  my coffee :pyou do you,learn from the lessons. :)


Adulting

She sells, sea shells on the sea shore


LOL! Idk why am I stuck with that thought in my head today. 🙄

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