Just wanna dive underwater again these days,
I just get amazed,
Seeing all those sea creatures there,
And imagining the kind of relief I  get there.
It will be so therapeutic,
At least at that time my mood will be static 
And my mind will be calm 
In this underwater balm.
And those tears in my eyes which I am gonna get after going deep down there will be full of detachment 
Detachment from all those bad thoughts 
And maybe everything will be temporarily sort.
Ah! lemme sleep and dream again of this treasure 
And feel that pleasure.


Abhi

Kabita 💫

yourgoodlistener

Poetry

Lmao why can't my family road trip ever begin without atleast 3 screaming matches

Family

Feeling overwhelmed. Have an early flight but cant seem to calm myself down. 

Anxiety

Drowning, sinking. Geez I don't know. Someone send me a life boat. 

Adulting

I feel dat i am just a burden to this earth and my parents and wish i could end everything.. but i am not having courage to do so ..
I am just a weekling. Others might think my problems are not big and i am blessed to have the life i am having right now. They are right.
But right know at dis point i am feeling like a peice of shit.

I'm having rapid mood swings. My closest friends stoped talking with me because of this and it has caused me to go into depression. I'm getting better now but since I'm living in college hostel seeing them happy without me and not being bothered about my absence makes me feel unwanted and useless. 

Friends

I feel excited about the idea of dying, not knowing what will happen after death and just ending it all. But I don't really do it for real because my fam and dog won't be happy. It's just an odd thought that keeps coming back to my mind from time to time. I don't share it to my friends. I'm not just used to sharing and I am afraid that they'll think that I am being dramatic. Plus, I don't really have much friends. I've always have difficulty in befriending people because I always doubt if they actually like me. Sometimes, when I'm feeling down, I just cry and talk alone. I don't know if that's weird but I feel like there's a voice in my head talking to me back and there are actual conversations and sometimes it's just one voice. It's good at telling me that I'm gonna fail on everything I do even before I started. Sometimes, it's fun talking to them but weird too because if they are in my head then they are me right? Is it the same for everyone? Because I don't know what's happening inside other people's mind so I just assume that it happens and people just don't talk about it. 

I've never been into a doctor. I don't tell it to my parents. We are not that close tbh but I love them anyway.

That's it. I just really wanted to vent so I searched for a site like this. 

Mental Health

I’m so problematic, I think of ending things…

3am Thoughts

Nearly 40 years old i've always been positive, active, always fighting on my own (even though i have a family with Kids) with my emotions, Hard times and Personal mental issues. I've always analized my feelings and i knew their origins. But knowing 'why' doesnt help with dealing with Serious problems that  now put me in darker and darker places.in the past i have managed to dig myself out of situations but the last few years i have lost the spark and power for the biggest breakthrough my mental health desperatlely needs. The only cracked door to a somewhat Light i see in myself now is that i still seek for some hope.. In sites like this. This is actually my first. Sorry for the vague note, but i guess this is how it works, right?
If someone wants to connect i would appreciate a more mature and even a humorous person, cause i found humor have helped me in the past (i deal with humor proffessionally, if that makes sense for a script writer). And sorry if my english is not perfect. Its not my natural one. 

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