I've never felt worse. I so want to talk to someone and cry out as loud as I can like a lil baby but I'd hate myself if i do that idk why. I just don't know what exactly is bothering me. How I'm so responsible for making my life which is apparently at a turning stage so messsy or that I am a terrible and unsuccessful child to the most amazing parents who'd give their everything to me in a heartbeat or that I make so many promises to myself and break every single one of them putting my future in so much trouble. I hate this feeling so very much. I've let myself down.. and there's no turning back at this point

Pasha 

Anxiety

There's a horrible feeling in my chest whenever something goes wrong. I always used to keep it in, not telling anyone because I hate showing anyone I'm vulnerable. My mom is supportive but I hate that she has to be strong even if it might devastate her. I feel almost always on edge, stressed, anxious, angry at myself for not being good enough. I always question if I deserve anything or anyone's support. I always compare myself to others, hating on myself. I cry it out and it gets better for a while, but that feeling never goes away. I think I need help, but don't know whats wrong with me. 

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I do aspire to be somewhere as in my thoughts but my emotions and mind are taking me somewhere else. I call it emptiness maybe due which I might be taking wrong decision. Stuck in unwanted Jib, 3 yrs of WFH and no break from this monotonous life, seeing a guy who have got no time to make relation grow yet I see some hope in him (or maybe I'm compromising), growing health issues. I really want to take some big step like an urge to transform my life but I cant because there are things aligned for me which I need to clear it out before making change in my life. And those are just too much slow for me. In short I m stuck I forcefully stuck in my life and I'm not growing at all.

Life

I want to disappear,it hurts.

Mental Illness

why is everything overwhelming?! All I want is to be able to understand my life and the world I live in. But there are too many things happening at once, and they're all so complicated.” We feel overwhelmed because we have a limited amount of time and energy to devote to everything that is happening around us. But why is everything so fkn overwhelming literally all the time. It can be hard to keep up with the news, our friends, our work, or whatever else we might be doing in a day. We also want to do it all well and find ourselves feeling like we can't do anything right. . "I'm so tired. "We are so exhausted from all the stress and time we spend on trying to keep up that we find it difficult to even live our own lives. We might feel like there's no way out of this feeling, but sometimes the best thing for us is to just take a break. Sometimes taking a rest can help us figure out new ways we can look at our current situation and approach it in a more productive way. "I don't know what to do." Sometimes we feel powerless, like we don't know the answers or that the situation is too complicated for us to understand. Sometimes information is overwhelming. Remind yourself that there are people who deal with this every day, and that you don't have to have all the answers. We may also feel like a burden because we are trying to help, or we are looking for information that others know but aren't sharing it. Why is everything so overwhelming? Maybe because you’re stressing too much about it…

Why am i feeling so overwhelmed today 🙂😔

I wanted to close my eyes and let the silence swallow me whole.

For the past few days, I have been avoiding people, not because I had any argument with them, but because I don't know what to do. I am facing problems and I don't want to hurt my close ones, intentionally or unintentionally. My friends say that I can never hurt them, but no one knows me better than myself. Sometimes I get angry, sometimes I feel like crying, I don't feel like meeting anyone or talking to anyone, and I don't have any appetite. I stay up all night like a crazy person. People want me to talk to them, but I don't know what to say, and I'm afraid I might say something that would hurt them. I'm still blaming myself for many things, and I don't want anything anymore. I don't feel like living for myself or for anyone. Every morning, I wake up with this question: When will the day come when I won't wake up? Everyone wants answers from me, but I can't even find answers to my own questions so how can I answer them. I'm tired from all these things. I have no hopes left but I'm trying to make it as long as I can.

3am Thoughts

I am a 20 year old girl and I have been a happy and kind of busy person all my life, with phases of being angry and irritated. Since lockdown I have had a lot of free time. Earlier I used to enjoy having so much free time and it felt nice watching shows and movies and just laying around all day without any tension of the studies. But now I don’t enjoy it anymore. I don’t enjoy the things I used to. I don’t enjoy meeting my friends as much, shopping, and I don’t connect with my family the way I used to. I feel low and sad and sometimes I start crying out of nowhere and I don’t even know the reason behind it. The other day I cried so much the whole day that my eyes were swollen for the next two days and I don’t know why I cried. I sometimes feel like a good for nothing, useless, rude and selfish person. I have a tendency to bottle up my emotions and feelings and not let them out at the time. I also used to feel like something bad should happen to me. Will making myself busy help me get rid of these thoughts? Or is this something much more deep?

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