Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’ve been wanting to voice my feelings for a while now but I’ve never had the words for it. I don’t know how to describe how I feel and I’ve tried to talk to people I know about what’s in my head but they’ve never really understood. For a long time, I’ve been told that I’m an open book. My friends always describe me as someone who talks about their life a lot and that’s because I’m always talking about random situations I’ve had with my family and past friends so I understand why they would think I’m a pretty open person. But that’s because I only ever talk to them about the good stuff in my life and I only ever tell them when I’m feeling good. My friends have gone through many mental hardships and I’ve never wanted to burden them with any of my problems because of it. That’s why I often feel lonely because I never have anyone to talk to when I’m feeling shitty or when something in my life has gone downhill. And even if I try voicing some of my feelings to them, I only ever get awkward replies from them or a small amount of comforting words before we move on to their problems again. So the point is, I just want someone to talk to and be myself around but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to find someone like that. Especially since the ability to make friends has always been difficult for me. So yeah. I don’t know if anyone will actually read all this but I just wanted to voice some of what I feel.