I’ve been struggling with my addiction to weed for over 5 years now. It started as a thing to do with friends, then became a way to cope with daily stress, and now it’s almost impossible to feel normal without it. As soon as my stash runs out I start having negative thoughts and when I’m stoned I’m pretty useless. Today I saw my ex girlfriend put up a photo with a new guy, pursuing the healthy active lifestyle that she always wanted, while I am alone with nothing but my job to keep me going every day. Most of my friends have moved on to other countries and cities for work and study. I feel like I want to take a break from working and just meet people and try to overcome addiction and build some more healthy habits, I know it won’t guarantee a social life again but I feel like I’ve dug myself into a hole with my career and no other prospects for happiness in life. Right now I’m at my grandparents house with no contact with my friends or drugs, like a rehab where I can keep working, hopefully I can keep myself engaged and find some way to feel connected to society again.
It’s great that you are recovering. Drugs do spoil a person’s life like hell. While you are at your grandparents house practice meditation it will surely help. Whenever you think of taking weed and you start to lose it think about how it’s destroying your life. Stay strong 🤎
