Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’ve been really feeling depressed and lonely lately and I don’t know why? I recently had a fight with my friend and how I let people take advantage of me and I don’t speak up for myself. I say I want my independence but I know deep down inside me that I’m afraid of getting that and being the independent person he sees me as. I’m always getting mad or upset when he tells me what I’m doing wrong and he tries to correct me but I don’t want to listen to what he has to say. Sometimes I just feel like giving up and just saying “fuck it.”