i’ve been feeling really down lately, i like a boy and he likes me and i really want to date him he’s the only one who makes me feel safe, he’s 14 and im 13, his name is Miguel
he lives in new york and i live in kansas, im planning on meeting him irl and hang once we are older, since i live with my strict mom she’s not going to let me date him or meet him, im getting tired of this place im thinking about running away soon, i love my mom but i just cant handle all of this right now, if i end up actually running away im going to do what i really want to do, be an actress, m trying to stop the self harm but its hard for me, anyways im starting to stop eating so i can be skinny and perfect :) i dont have real friends honestly, Mariah Bowns is fake, she lied about being raped and she is an attention seeker, she manipulates others and its annoying, i wish my mom wasnt so strict on me, im thinking about just disappearing, i know it sounds stupid, but i want a new life i want to get away from everything thats hurting me right now, i love my mom she does everything for me and i love her for that, im just getting tired of seeing all those perfect girls on social media and then seeing myself, i look terrible i look like a pig im so fat and clearly starving myself doesnt help so im going to find a faster way to be skinny.
this is all for day 1 ill be back.
Omg 13-14. Wow
