Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’ve been feeling kinda suck lately, I’ve been overthink about myself in a friend group. So I had a friend group that has 20 member on it and we’ve been playing games, chatting and more but days by day I feel like I’m making the uncomfortable, and annoyed them. Since they act weird recently. Ugh idk why but that’s making me losing motivation to do things that I usually do. They were my only group friend that I had and I don’t want to make myself get kicked out 😭also i have crush on 1 of the member, our relationship are good kinda close not rlly. And there a bich that acting sad and depressed and only be nice to my crush like excuse me 😃😃and 6 of the member think that she deserves better bla bla bla but I feel like, my place were moved yknow like THAT SUPPOSED TO BE ME. ugh life so unfair i hate my life