I’ve been feeling insecure about my weight a lot lately
I am not being able to swallow solid food anymore

Don't think like that. Every one is beautiful .you are unique. Love yourself 

The best thing to do is to take your mind off your weight and back onto you as a person. And being aware of difficult emotions is also the first step dealing with them. Just remember that you're unique in your own way and there are lots of ppl here supporting you, even me. You're the best❤️

Is It Ends With Us worth reading?

Books

Lonely

I saw a beautiful dream where i was traveling and having a good time. But all of a sudden he was in there in the dream. Why the fcuk is he there when i have tried forgetting and ignoring him all this while. We didn't even had a relationship to remember any beautiful moments. But still he even took a space in my dream. I guess i can never get over him. But well the dream wasn't ruined, it just went with the flow. But i don't want to hurt myself anymore. No more!

3am Thoughts

Shades got brighter, 
Cost got dimmer ,
It's the passage of time that made it glitter .....

Life

Please
I've had enough
In circles I'm turning
From this world I'm burning
Tell me what happens after this
Somedays I'm flying high, I'm falling low
Somedays I'm made of gold, I'm made of stone
I promised you better, but this is all I have... 

Music


Hello. I have a best friend, we met in high school, and have been very close since then. It’s been like that for the four years of our college lives (different colleges). And a looot of things have happened during this time.
So this bestie of mine has a lot of issues to deal with, she also suffers from PCOS, and many other issues. And she had a rough time last year, so the whole year, I’ve more or less, been like a therapist to her. Always gave her a shoulder, always listened to her problems. At times, it made me really upset that she was never emotionally available when I needed her. But then, I went with it because it was her, who was having a worse time than I. But once I confronted her, and things turned out really hurtful, she attacked me for not understanding her, I attacked her for not understanding me, and so on.
After a couple of weeks, we apologized to each other, and things got better. I and her went on a trip together, with our boyfriends, it was all fun.
Now things are better in her life, I’d not say ideal, but better. And she’s in a good space and a better mental state.
And I share her happiness, and I’m very happy for her. Also, when good things happened in her life, I thought it’s good for me too, as I’d finally get my bff’s emotional availability.
But, no, that’s not what happened. It almost feels like she’s not interested in my life. She barely texts me, replies after hours. I don’t feel like sharing things/ feelings anymore because she either doesn’t listen to what I’m saying patiently (or so it feels), or doesn’t remember at all. She’s very self absorbed. And it’s having a negative impact on me.
When we’re in person, she is really good with me. Although, it’s different when her boyfriend is around. But I know she loves me, I know she cares about me, etc. She tells me that she does. But, it just doesn’t feel that way you know?
Meanwhile, I still continue to listen to her feelings patiently, and reply sensibly and empathetically, to this day.

And at this point, I don’t know if I’m being too judgemental, or being too self absorbed myself!
I know I can’t confront her about this again. Bcuz we’ve been through this, and the last time, she told me she’d never want to lose me.
Maybe I’m the attention seeker, I really don’t know. But these feelings, are real. And I’m just putting up with them, with her. But then eventually I forget it, and try to share, but I get hit with the same kind of response again!
I’m tired. And don’t know what to do.
Is it me? Is it my expectations? Please, somebody tell me what you feel about this.

Thank you so much for taking time to read my rant.

Friends

Conversation
It is Sunday eve and it is little bit cold here and now i wanna do some random chats conversation and i really wanted to talk to peoples and know about their ideas so lets do it 

What do u think about this situation? 

My bf has a female bsf they were pretty close like a lot he used tell her about her sexual life as well.. So once while they were talking she said to him that they can be fwb and he denied it and then told me everything m. I didn't reacted at that time much they were still in contact after that used to meet as well... Then later I was overthinking alot and said everything whatever wasvon my mind to my bf he then blocked her from everywhere in front of again later he unblocked and was going to meet her by lieing to me and some how I got know that again he blocked her in front of me and today he was on call and told him to share me rhe ss of the call whith who you were talking he shared it with me as well but the timing and when I called qas not matching and twhen i called him he was busy on other call I tried to ask him then he said he was talking with his female bsf and lied to me coz I would get angry.. And now I've blocked him from everywhere this was his 3rd chance givaen by me but i don't want to lose my self respect anymore.. 

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