I’ve been a loner, an outcast, worthless, piece of shit, I’ve cut myself, I’m an alcoholic, a junkie an addict, I hate myself and hurt myself at every chance I get, I’ve never had a bond worth remembering, I’m a coward, I’ve spoilt every opportunity I’ve had at anything great, I’m weak, poor, abandoned, scared, isolated, feel like my existence is not worth anything, I have no passion, no friends, no relationship, I am left out of everything and it feels better that way, and I can’t take any of this anymore. I can’t pick my phone to call anyone and tell this, I don’t want to speak to anyone, I don’t ever want to feel this way ever again, I feel sorry for myself, my minds never allowed me to experience anything, I’ve hated everything, I’ve hated myself even though I’ve achieved something, my only way of celebration is getting drunk or getting high and forgetting everything. I feel sorry for myself. I have destroyed myself and everything I have ever known. Can you fucking hear me ? I DON’T EVER WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY EVER AGAIN. YOU OR ANYTHING ELSE NO LONGER HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER ME. I DON’T FUCKING WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY EVER AGAIN. this is how I move on, this is how I keep my first step, this is how I break every barrier, this is how I surpass all limits. This is how I learn to keep calm. This is how I move on.
Hey stranger,
Hang in there. You are one of the braves I believe. Take each day, 1 step at a time. Always remember “There’s more to life than mere ups and downs, there’s always a dawn before dusk, courage before failure, and faith before death”.
Love yourself for a bit and a bit longer. Because there are some places in the life where you need to go alone, where people leave. Because in the loneliest moment of your life, only YOU- YOU ARE THERE FOR YOURSELF. 😀🍁🌻
