It's one of those days when I'm feeling good. Good not like "excited good" but more like "peaceful, neutral good". 

And this is coming after hell days of darkness.

I think I'm healing and my brain and heart accepted whatever happened. Ready to be myself again 🙂

Hope all of you struggling out there see a hole of light in your dark and be filled by many more of it with time. 🌸

Affirmations

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Addiction

Body Positivity

You know what gives a stinging type of sadness? The one where your eyes are filled with tears but you're not crying? One sided love.
Love might be too strong an emotion. I like a guy but he doesn't like me back. I mean, obviously since he forgot to wish me on my birthday last year and wished me on snapchat this year. (And we've know each other for 3 or 4 yrs? I'm not sure) Most days it's easy to not mind this as he doesn't cross my mind much. But the times when he does, there's sadness left behind and I don't recover for a while. God, I'm such loser at love.

I need someone with whom I can share  my feelings , with whom i can cry aloud , with whom I can share my ups and down I want someone who understands me
I am fed up of being strong

Depression

Happy Friday everybody! Time for another Roses and Thorns of the week! You can comment with your rose and thorn of the week if you like.
(If you didn't see my previous post, a Rose is something good that happened to you this week,and a Thorn is something bad that happened to you this weekend)

Rose: My rose would have to be that I got a 100% on both my history test and my biology presentation today. I was super nervous about it, so it's nice to see that I did it! :D

Thorn: I had a math test today and I seriously am worried about it because I didn't really understand some of it, so I'm nervous. The teacher also wasn't in class today, and he didn't think to tell us this on Monday (last time I had math class) and so I was waiting for 15 minutes in the zoom, waiting for him to join the zoom. I almost had a PA over it and I started the test late because of this so I finished late, so I might or might not lose points for turning it in 20 minutes late... We'll see though.

I hope you all had a good week and I hope you all have a good weekend! <3

~🖤~🖤~🖤~🖤~🖤~

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Mental Wellbeing

I'm at this point in my life that I can say without a doubt that no one cares about me at all. Not one person. I have a good number of friends but they're not around when I need them, my parents make fun of me being sad all the time, my boyfriend isn't emotionally available, I was an amazing student now i'm seen as the stupidest. Sometimes I feel like i'm completely worthless. I have so many thoughts about harming myself in any way just so I could receive some attention and affection from really anybody at this point. Thoughts of hurting myself, thoughts wherein i'm dying and these are my last days, they seem to be the only option for me to receive love.
 I am so unhappy. Demotivated. Lonely. I can't remember when I was happy without feeling and overthinking if tomorrow would be just as happy. Today all I feel is sadness and worthlessness, two things I thought I will never have to feel.
 

Lonely

God grant me: 
The SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change,
The COURAGE to change the things I can; and
THE WISDOM to know the difference.

-Dr Rheinhold Neibur

Breakup

I don't usually actually love people or things. 
But If I do, I went to the extent that people call me crazy. 

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