It’s my story and i need some advice. Hope somebody will understand and help.
Firstly my life started changing from my 6th grade. My family’s financial problems started. And due to that my father started drinking a lot. It led to fights between my parents every night. From that day to today every night there is fight in our house. I may act normal but it does affects a lot. Seeing my friends living normal and happy life it makes me jealous because i want to live that life too. Due to all this family problems i wanted someone to share my feelings emotions. And i did find someone in my 10th standard but all she did was lie to my face that she loved me. My first relation lasted for 3 months . I already was in love with that girl but anyhow she chose her friends over me and lied to me in every situation. I was not able to get over her for 1,5 years. Later my friend with whom i used to share my feelings texted her and somehow we again came in contact in my 12th standard. Then we started as friends. It was quite hard for me as she made jokes of me that used to hurt me. I was in love with her and she literally made jokes and said things bluntly that hurted me but somehow after all that we were again in relationship but this time she was in love too (i guess) but later on she started doing same old things. She said I’m her priority but she always chose some other guy over me and his best friend too. I was so i pain bcz she again lied to me this time too when she said she loved me everytime. But she not only lied but she did things that i told her. Would hurt me. But still she did and told me after days and said to my face that “at least i told you . You should appreciate. Stop overreacting” i ised to cry so much for that girl. Just because i was so in pain. There are so many things literally so many things that she did to me knowing that will hurt me but still she did to me. We dated for 1,5 years this time and in 2020 we were in talk till November. After every fight we did for some other guy she always chose him and she always talked to him and at end i was getting blocked only. She said she loved me she realised in 2020. But you tell me a person in love can hurt someone intentionally? And by choosing every other person over him? I may have not told my full story but there’s a lot things that’ll take forever to write. But all i want to say is this time she knee my family problems she knew i am hurt. She knew every thing that will hurt me still she did it. Now i am all alone and she i really happy. I’ve stalked her so many time. How can someone do such things and still be happy? I hate to see her happy. Please help.