it's lonely in hostel life. it's my last year in college. but i have no friends till now neither in college nor hostel. everyone enjoying their this phase of life and im struggling to manage myself as a normal being rather than an awkward which I'm in person. wish i had friends here. this time would be bearable but i am not able to make friends. 

i love to sing and jam with my fam. but i miss it here

Lonely

I feeling terrible sometimes but I'm also have a good side which is also sometimes devils I guess 😅 idk it's random though HAHA LOL

Love

I love  those days when it feels to find beauty in everything 

Well, I’m just really frustrated. This may sound stupid but my friend wants everything I have. Everyone I’ve had a thing with, she starts talking to them. I brought her on a date with me and now she is dating the guy. I think that she talks to them about me behind my back because they just act different around me now. Anything I say, it’s like she doesn’t care. If I say something it’s as if it’s always a debate and she just makes me feel so stupid. We always argue and when I try and say something about it, she flips it around and makes everything seem like my fault. I live right next to her and I’ve known her all my life, so I can’t just ignore it. I see her everyday and in some ways I have been fake but I can’t take it anymore! I feel like crying and it’s making me crazy and I don’t know what to do

*So thing's are like I don't have much friends (3) only and I love ANUBHAV SINGH BASSI so he's here and I wanted to go see his Show with my only friends but one of them is like my boyfriend will also come we have to take him we have to take him like it's compulsory or what?? Why always why? Why can't be it just 3 of us? Why is it always necessary that he has to be there? Is it a ritual or something? Why am I the who always has to understand?*
This is so frustrating damn it .. I want it just 3 of us why don't she understand?



Misunderstanding

Kabhi toh chaunk ke dekhe koi hamari taraf, 
Kisi ki aankho 👀mein humko bhi intezaar 🕛dikhe.💕

3am Thoughts

I just don't feel that I'm friends with my own friends..is that normal'? I don't feel like talking to anyone or Calling up people..feels like I'll end up doing smt inappropriate n so I avoid people 

Life

Just now, I gave my friend another chance to help me,to see if she would listen to my suffering and she said ,she will. And guess what, I was right. She cleverly escaped from listening to my problems. Another proof not to trust my friends by their words. No one really wants to help you out when the problems start to get serious. They are just up for the juicy stuff. I gave the 100th chance to people to help me. It clearly proves no one cares when the problems are serious and when they take effort and time to listen and support us. Look at what the world has become.

Depression

It’s like, I am about to appear for a phd entrance exam in 2 weeks and my father is just putting so much pressure on me. I am trying to work hard but I don’t like when someone keeps poking me for something. I don’t feel like doing it anymore. And I am so frustrated. I never wanted to do phd but he always knew he wanted me to do it. I somehow made up my mind that I will do phd, and I really want to do it and I was working hard for the same. But I can’t deal with this pressure. He just tries to dictate my life and my actions all the time. He doesn’t even let me study where I want to study(on my table) he thinks that he is helping me by suggesting a better place for me to sit, but he isn’t. I know where I am more comfortable. Idk. He just calls me stubborn and what not. He tells me again and again that if I crack this exam I’ll make his life successful as well. His wish will get fulfilled. Ik. But I don’t want to feel this pressure. I am not even able to focus. 

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